Letting go of yourself is never easy. Believing that someone else in this world could treasure your heart, and take care of it as you do seems impossible, that someone in this world could possibly understand your ambitions, your fears, dreams, understandings and misunderstands; it all seems almost as far-fetched as literally handing your heart over to someone. However, the inescapable desire to want to give yourself up to someone else never leaves. You can try to shake off the feeling and allow fear to corrode your mind, but nothing will ever erase the desire to be adored by another human being, and letting yourself go to love.
You will come across an exceptionally beautiful soul, and immediately you will be enthralled with the glory of their stature. Your mind will never stray from the thoughts of them, and even when thinking of something or someone else, you will find that that person will always create a gentle haze over every part of your mind. Every moment of your existence will be stemmed and hinged off the complete love of their spirit. Like a deer panting for water, your heart will long for them.
You will be captivated with every mannerism they have. Their eyes will seem deeper, more intricate and complicated than others. Their mindset will be like a labyrinth to you, unable to understand, but gladly content to be lost in. The way they brush their hair from their face in a swift solitary movement will be like a wave crashing upon you. You will notice the way they walk, how their hips sway and their feet twist to the side with each step. You will fall for the inflections in their voice that dance in your ears and the way sighs tend to slip from their mouth. The way their lips meet the coffee cup in the morning will send goosebumps down your arms, and their late night, scratchy voice will send shivers down your spine. Their smile, laugh, and subtle glances will become contagious and infect you with feelings you never thought you'd allow yourself to feel.
Your fears may come back, and you will ultimately find yourself questioning your feelings. You may find yourself wanting to run, but you will become caught between the things you are afraid of and things you desire to invest in. Memories may flood back in and consume you. You may have recollections of past lovers, past moments, and broken dreams that you may have once wanted to be a reality; however, even with being consumed with doubt, you cannot be pulled away from the new love you have found. You cannot be disheartened by the difficulties of past experiences. You must look towards the future.
You will look at them with such a beautiful passion and you will see them like no other human being. Even being surrounded by such an ugly world, you will come to find out, through that single person, that angelic human beings exist. That one person will make you feel as though sin does not exist. Being in that person's presence will cause you to be overcome with a feeling of security. Though you may have been left, bruised, and broken, you will suddenly feel on track. In becoming lost in that beautiful soul, you will be found.
