You're damed if you do, you're damed if you don't.

Some decisions deserve either fire or water. Choosing which, is a stressful process. I have experienced a lot through my eighteen years of life. A lot of choices to be made, and a lot of decisions to be completed. I have struggled very hard the past few years in my choices.

Something small or tragic will happen, and it will affect me into tears. My mother taught me to bite my tongue, but sometimes there are some things that are not meant to be silenced.

Have you ever let anyone talk badly about you, and you sit there wondering "Do I say something, or do I shut my mouth?" It is probably one of the hardest decisions to make. My father taught me to always stick up for myself, but every time I do, I am the obvious bad guy. Violence is never, ever the answer, but sometimes confrontation is. Some situations are healed by a face to face talk, and others are meant to just subside within time.

Picking which, is one of the hardest tasks.

I find myself wondering if I make the right decisions, and I somehow cannot seem to answer my questions. I have become so sick of getting shamed for "Not saying hello to that or person" because I wanted to speak with my silence.

Speaking with silence has become my favorite form of retaliation. In fact, it isn't retaliation at all to most people. Not saying hello can start a whole feud that you did not mean to begin.

But, its not that easy. You heart becomes warm and you do it, you say hello. You say hello to the person who has hurt you in the past and still continues to hurt you. You walk away. You kick yourself in the ass, "Why was I nice to them? They hurt me and put me through so much pain."

Picking your battles and understanding when to be silent is a difficult task but once you have fully learned who you are and can trust yourself, choosing will come naturally.