You thought you had it all. You're content, successful, and had your soulmate by your side.
Then one day it all disappears.
Without realizing what you're doing, you begin to rely on someone to make you happy. Your motivation, your happiness, your confidence is all because of that someone. You feel like all the pieces are coming together, completing the perfect life. Then it all crashes before you.
You're stuffing all your clothes, shoes, and memories into suitcases and putting them in the trunk of your car. After so long, you adapted to your surroundings, your routines, and your lifestyle. Now you're having to start over again, but this time, you aren't confident that you'll ever be as happy as you once were.
You lay in bed the day after, with no motivation to get out of bed. No motivation to get in the shower. No motivation to be social with the outside world. After a couple hours, you finally get the strength to start your day. You begin to unpack your things at your new place. You're having to get used to the fact that you're on your own again. You have your music blasting so you're unable to hear your the little voice inside your head.
How can I move on with my life? I've never been so lost.
I can't start over.
How will I make it through the days? I don't have anything or anyone to live for anymore.
It's a struggle to get rid of that mindset. It soon clouds your judgement, your lifestyle, and your confidence. You're having to learn to do what's best for yourself and to be on your own again.
It seems impossible, and you don't seem to care about the outcome of your actions anymore because living seems pointless.
Months go by, and you still feel the same. You spend your weekends hiding away from the world, laying on your couch, with candles being the only light in the room. The light in your eyes is no longer. The light in your spirit is hidden away from everyone. You feel helpless and that no one will ever understand how your dark thoughts are taking over your well-being.
In that moment, you realize that your mind has won. You know you need help, and you've looked into seeing a counselor, in hopes of getting answers to your madness. Deep inside, you're afraid of showing your true self to another being, but you know that you're unable to interact and be okay without some form of help. It's a step towards learning to live again, but this time you're trying to live on your own, without relying on another love, another being.
It's a long road, with many bumps and obstacles that make you question yourself and your purpose in life. You have to eventually move forward and make that gesture to getting better. You're having to learn to live on your own, love yourself, and find your purpose. With time, it will get better.