I cannot believe that I only have 10 weeks left of freshman year. It seems like just yesterday I was moving into my dorm and excited to start a new independent adventure with my best friend by my side. Now here I am, almost 8 months into my first year of college, and I have no idea what I want to do with my life.
It’s kinda crazy to think that I graduated from high school almost a year ago. I really had no idea what I was doing when I came to college and it’s surreal that I’m basically done with my first year.
The thing I loved most about freshman year was the memories that I made. On the flight back to SCU during spring break, I was extremely bored and decided to go through my pictures. I was immediately hit with extreme nostalgia as the memories of the first two quarters of freshman year came flooding into my brain.
I thought of all of the good things that happened: meeting my “Squaaaaaa” for the first time, being initiated into my sorority, being with the guy that I liked, and taking classes that I actually enjoyed. I thought about all of the stupid and goofy times that I’ve spent with my friends where we ended up laughing for hours and about the many midnight talks that we’ve spent discussing our deepest feelings and desires. It’s moments like these that cannot be replaced and I’ve never been sadder that this year is coming to an end.
Even though I know I will always have these memories, we have a 3-month break coming up where I won’t see my friends and I’m worried that things will be different when we come back to start our sophomore year of college.
However, the main reason as to why I’m freaking out about the end of my first year of college is that I still have no clue as to what I want to do. My declared major right now is Computer Science, and while I thoroughly enjoy it, the classes that I have taken so far for my major have made me less sure of myself. I have begun to doubt whether or not I can actually major in CS, but there is truly no other major that I could choose in which I could do better in or that my parents would approve of.
I know that I am only a freshman and that most people don’t declare their major until sophomore year, but I am still nervous that the path that I have chosen isn’t the right one for me. I’m still taking Computer Science classes and hoping that as time goes on, I will be able to figure out what I truly want to do with it.
I’m honestly scared because I know that the classes will only get tougher and I will be pushed to work harder than I ever have before. And I know that is something that all college kids go through in order to become successful after we graduate.
Despite all of this though, I know one thing for sure: I am going to miss being a freshman.