It’s been almost two months since you’ve been gone and I still hear you telling me, “Then why don’t you get up and walk up those steps.”

I still hear you trying to explain why you didn’t come visit me in the hospital when I had my back surgery.

I still hear you telling me that if you had to live with my disease, you would be suicidal and depressed.

I can still hear you say, “I’d be perfect if I didn’t have muscular dystrophy.”

I still hear you telling me “I’m being too sensitive” each time you saw tears starting to stream down my face.

I still feel the pain from you aggressively moving me whenever I told you something was uncomfortable.

I still hear you telling me, “I look better with my shirt on.”

I can still hear you saying “I never said that,” when I would try to talk to you about something hurtful you said.

I still feel the helplessness I had that day you pushed my hand off the joystick and drove my chair against my will.

I can still hear all of the excuses you gave me for not coming to see me at my dorm room.

I still see that annoyed look on your face you had whenever I would fall over on the couch or in the car.

I still hear the silence after each time I told you I loved you.

I still feel the fear of seeing that look on your face when I couldn’t do something myself and I needed to ask you for help.

And now I feel that fear each time I go up to someone hoping they will help me, even with the ones who are closest to me and wouldn’t think twice about it.

You never understood what the things you were saying and doing affected me. I tried to talk to you about it so many times, but it didn’t do anything.

I still don’t think you’re a bad guy, you were just the wrong one.

If you have experienced anything like this in a relationship, it might be time to reconsider if that person is right for you. It’s not worth it to be upset and hurt all the time just so you can stay with them. Sometimes it’s better to say goodbye than to be miserable staying with the person you love.