You know those times when your heart starts beating really fast, and your breathing escalates, and your hands get extremely sweating and start shaking. It's those moments when you can hear everything happening in your body.
You can feel your heart beating. And before you know it, tears start to form. First they come really slow and hot, but then they are falling faster than your heartbeat. Your voice begins to crack, the tears stain your clothes and pillows, and nothing seems to be slowing down.
But then something really miraculous happens. The tears stop falling. And your hands stop shaking. You slowly catch your wild breath. And all at once, your body finds itself calm again. You're okay again.
Sometimes things happen that take your breath away. Sometimes good, sometimes bad. Sometimes things happen that make your hands shake and your body go against itself. But eventually the tears stop. And the tears stop because your body adjusts itself back to being okay. Your body calms itself, even when you can't.
When you're okay, and your days are going by great, and nothing can bring you down, you tend to forget what being not okay is like. We all do. We live on the high of greatness and pity those who don't feel the same. Then, as life always likes to do, life reminds you what it's like to not okay. It breaks your heart, or it gives you back a really not so good test grade, or it does something you would never expect it to.
But I think God does this on purpose. He does this to remind you what your body can do. He does this because he knows you can handle it. He does this because you are strong enough. He does this to remind you that you are worthy beyond words.
When life is everything but ideal, we remember what truly brings us our happiness. Sometimes its our friends. Sometimes its your mom. Sometimes its what you've been ignoring the whole time. But we are reminded that we are only as strong as we are when we are at the bottom.
When you can pick yourself up, that is when you know you're okay. And sometimes it takes an hour, or an week, or maybe longer. But we're all going to be okay. We are okay.