Dear Angel,

Where do I even begin? I miss you like crazy. I honestly don't think that it has hit me yet that you are really gone.

I find myself thinking about you at all times of the day. I replay memories of you in my head and smile. I always think about how it isn't fair, and how you got taken from me way too soon.

I constantly think of how things would be different if you were here, and how much happier I'd be. I feel like, when you died, so did a piece of me. I lost myself, I think it was buried with you. I get angry, because I feel like I could have done more to save you, and maybe you'd still be here.

I cry. I cry all the time. I cry because I think about how you died. I cry because I miss you. I cry because I wish you were here to be a part of the big events in my life. But I feel like losing you made me numb to pain altogether. No pain is as strong as the pain of losing you was.

I hope I make you proud. I know there have been times where I haven't, and I have probably disappointed you greatly. But I will continue to get better and do better in life. I know that you want the best for me.

I feel like I have so many things I want to say to you. I wish I could take a trip to heaven for the day, and we could sit down and talk, just like old times. I swear that would be the best day of my life.

I know that it isn't possible to come visit, but I still feel your presence. I can feel you watching over me. I am so thankful I have that.

I cannot wait to be reunited with you and to feel complete again. Until then, please keep watching over me, guiding me, and protecting me. I love and miss you with all my heart!

XOXO