"What if I wake up one day and decide I identify as an attack helicopter???" This stupid overused joke has been recycled to me time and time again as a way to disregard trans and nonbinary individuals since belittling minorities became an edgy internet fad. I looked into a hysterectomy for myself when I realized that I received such bad dysphoria during my period and menstrual cycles that I genuinely wanted to shed my skin. I felt my body was betraying me. It felt like there was some sort of evil force within me trying to betray my body and keep it from operating normal or how I felt like it was supposed to operate.

The feeling I experienced when my body bled or spotted was a feeling I genuinely think I can not accurately describe to anyone unless they have felt that pain of true dysphoria. It is a deep and dark feeling that I truly think is one of the worst ones an individual can experience. I would never wish it on my very worst enemy. Time and time again I have the old, recycled joke towards trans people in a pathetic attempt to degrade them.

"Well... what if I identify as an attack helicopter? What if I identify as this chair?"

This is a crass scrape off the bottom of the barrel that I see attempted to pass off as some pathetic attempt at humor or even at times presented in actual debates. The point is, if you truly did identify as an inanimate object and were plagued with crippling dysphoria every day of your life that made you want to shed your own skin and crawl away from the body you feel you have the misfortune of being given, I would hope you possessed support from your family, friends, and even strangers in your life that would stand by you through that trial. Jokes like this are rather pathetic try to degrade trans and nonbinary individuals without any real facts or opinions as to they want to keep individuals from living the life that is best for them or choosing to be in a body that they are actually comfortable in and feel they can belong to.

I have experienced dysphoria first hand. I wish I could put these feelings onto the person that I am debating with so that they can live a day in the life of someone who has to fight just to feel moderately comfortable in their body and not be overcome with the feeling of wanting to abandon their own body because they feel they are trapped. Another thing I like to bring into account is how unbelievably difficult it is for a trans person to transition. This is not just an emotional difficulty but rather refusal from doctors. The operation I looked into was both endometrial ablation and hysterectomy to rid me of my dysphoria that plagues my body and works as nothing but a horrific hindrance to a vast majority of women.

If you are a woman you are completely incapable of getting your reproductive organs altered in any sort of way. This is because doctors and humans, in general, believe women are to bear children. The fact that a woman may have no desire for children or not conform to expectations does not come into account with doctors and physicians. I Googled what it would take to get a hysterectomy or endometrial ablation. All answers told me it was going to be nearly impossible.

A woman would have to be incredibly sick, have fibroids, endometriosis, or some other form of serious ailment for a doctor to even consider. A man is easily able to get a vasectomy. It is as simple as walking in and asking for the procedure. However, it is believed to be absolutely impossible for a woman (or non-binary individuals) to know their own minds and work towards the body that they desire.

Many times trans people are denied their hormone replacement therapy and have to go through a long, extensive process or paying for and convincing a therapist to write them a letter informing the doctor that they are indeed trans and can go through surgery. The process is exhausting and by the time you finally are able to get to your procedure (if you are even guaranteed permission by doctors and therapists) you feel all the fight has been beaten out of you. You are broken down, humiliated, and still trapped in the body you wish to escape.

One does not wake up and decide to be. The process contains more denial than a vast majority of people will endure in their entire lives. The dysphoria is painful. The constant rejection and lack of cooperation from doctors is the most infuriating thing in the entire world. Trans people are here and living as one can be the most difficult thing in the world. Denial is constant. All I can do is hope to get the results I deserve and applaud others who have success stories as well. Success in transition is difficult when the doctors who you are putting your life into the open hands of, are refusing cooperation. We can do so much better.