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Internal Conflict

Sometimes emotions can get in the way to show how you really feel, but do not give up.

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I told you this would happen

I told you you would feel this way

But you didn’t listen did you

No, and now you feel lost and confused

You sit wondering what happened

How did you let yourself feel this way

Like a monster you can’t control

No matter how hard you try to stop it

It used to only occur once in a while

Now it happens all the time

And even harder to control than before

All you can do is watch it

Watch it as your family gets torn apart

See, if you listened and paid attention

Maybe it wouldn’t be this bad

Maybe you would be happier

Instead of the monster you become without meaning to

You feel one way, but your actions show another

Haha, I told you, now I am going to sit back

And watch you humiliate yourself

While you stress out

And wonder why you have become the way you are

It would be easier if you watched

As the illness took over you

If you listened, you wouldn’t have hurt your loved ones

And maybe would have sought for help before it got this far

But you didn’t, so suffer the consequences

Worry about how to make things better

Worry about how to make your family believe it isn’t them

The reason you act the way you do

Make them believe the way you feel

And the way you act

Are two completely different things

You are trying so hard to figure out how to do that

Because this confusion has taken over

The words won’t come out

I am making you feel like it is your fault

The way I tell you you should have listened

But it isn’t your fault

You can’t help feel the way you do

I am sorry I blamed you

Honestly, I didn’t see this coming

So for me to feel better about the silent attack

Is by putting the blame on you and saying

You should have listened

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