First things first, if you haven't seen Avengers: Infinity War. This article will contain massive spoilers so this is your warning. If you continue to read this article, I will not be accepting any complaints about me giving away what happens in the movie, as I have warned you that. Thank you.

Now that that's out of the way...for those of you that have already seen the movie, let me tell you that it wrecked me. Broke me. Crushed me. Destroyed me. Any synonymous word could go there.

Anything that insinuates the fact Marvel took my worst nightmare and capitalizedoff of it. A nightmare I didn't even know I had until I saw it happen before my own two eyes.

This article is being written by my tears. That's how much this movie fucked me up.

So, picture this:

Here I am, a happy-go-lucky 20-year-old girl, walking into a theater to see a movie I have been looking forward to for months. My friends and I are so excited. The theater was sold out, I had smuggled in some snacks and I purposely didn't drink any water because I didn't want to have to pee the entire time.

I was ready. Or, at least I thought I was ready.

I wasn't ready for me to be a victim instead.

It's like the Russo brothers *intended* to reach into my chest and rip my heart out, then proceed to throw it on the ground, stomp on it multiple times, and then look into my eyes, stick their tongues out and walk away while they laugh at my pain.

Seriously. That was rude.

My little God of Mischief got his neck snapped while defending his brother. Five minutes into the movie.

Five. Minutes.

And, Thanos, let me tell you...my rocket ship is loaded and I am on my way to fight you right now.

Square up, bitch. I may only 5'2'', but I'm ready to kick your ass.

The Russo brothers may have given you a backstory, and maybe I empathized with you for a few minutes. But, I hold grudges like there's no tomorrow and I grew up with three older brothers.

Gamora deserved *way* better and I am personally knighting myself as an Avenger, because my new life purpose is to avenge her.

So.

Here I am, a 20-year-old girl. Whose a little broken at this point in the movie. I'm thinking: "Well, it can't get any worse than this, right?"

Wrong. Boy, we were all wrong.

First, Star Lord fucked everything up. They had the gauntlet in their hands and he fucked it up.

Second, props to Mark Ruffalo and Tom Holland for not spoiling That Scene™.

You know, the one where they decided to kill everyone that wasn't one of the people we thought we going to get killed. I'm totally not traumatized by that at all.

I was told so many times, by so many people:

"Get into Marvel movies," they said.

"They're so much fun," they said.

"You'll love them!" they said.

Nothing was fun about this. The Russo brothers succeeded in making the most depressing movie I've ever witnessed in my life. Also, they did it in 30 seconds. AND I didn't even get my desired scene:

Star Lord and Bucky meeting with the classic tune Bye Bye Lil' Sebastian in the background.

Instead, Bucky was killed in front of Steve, for a second time.

And on another note, I would personally like to sue the Russo brothers on account that my friends keep bringing up the fact that it was at some point deemed "okay" to murder Peter Parker in front of my own two seeing balls.

He was a CHILD. He just wanted to be a friendly neighborhood Spider-man. Just wanted to protect people. And you gave him the most painful and longest death. In front of Tony Stark, nonetheless.

And after he said he didn't need *that* on his conscience in Spider-man: Homecoming.

With that being said, I'm definitely going to subject myself to this torturous movie another five times, and I've prepared a eulogy out of respect:

Nick Fury and Maria Hill, I can't believe you were brought back just to be killed in the post credit scene.

Loki, your death was never properly mourned by me, so I apologize.

Heimdall, Your death was slept on by everyone.

Gamora, You deserved better.

Vision, I'm so sorry you had to killed by Wanda for no reason.

Groot, it was right after you cut off your arm for Thor too. So brave.

Black Panther. Falcon. Winter Soldier. Scarlet Witch. Drax and Mantis.

You were so brushed over. I didn't even have time to register you were chosen. I truly apologize for the Russo brothers cruelty.

Star Lord, this is done with reluctance. I'm still a little mad at you.

Spider-Man, my beloved will be sorely missed. I'm still in denial and it hurts writing this.

Doctor Strange, you should've just opened a portal and cut Thanos' arm off. Major plot hole.