I sit here knowing it’s time for my dog of 16 years to go.

She has been with me through the biggest stages and transitions of my life. How am I supposed to be OK with such a hard goodbye? I look at her, and I know she isn’t happy anymore, but what gives me the right to make that decision for her?

The fact that she doesn’t leave her room, she can’t see or hear anything anymore, and she isn’t living the quality life that she deserves. You have been there for me in the best and worst of times, I’ll miss you more than anything, Holly.

1. Our pets have been there through it all

From crying after a middle school dance to jumping around with me when I got a college acceptance letter, she has been there. I swear animals know what we are feeling. She would lick my tears right off my face and snuggle up next to me on lonely nights. She has been there through it all.

2. Our pets become a part of us

Pets become a part of the family, a part of your childhood and your everyday life. It’s hard not to wake up and have them running around in circles waiting for a treat. I could talk about memories of her for hours. She will always be a part of me.

3. Our pets are filled with love

Holly is one of the most loving beings I have ever known. No matter how hard life became for her, she would be there at home ready to be loved and ready to love me. She was a rescue dog that came to us obviously hurt by her previous owner, but she still gave so much love. She is filled with love.

4. Goodbyes are never easy

Everything changes, your entire world. Knowing you had something that’s no longer there is so painful but having her in my life has made growing up that much better.

It is explained best by a very special six-year-old child: Dogs die so young but people don’t, because “People are born so that they can learn how to live a good life – like loving everybody all the time and being nice. Well, dogs already know how to do that, so they don’t have to stay as long.” I couldn’t agree more.

To the most amazing dog, who will always be my puppy, I love you more than anything. Thanks for letting me cry on you, pretend you were my baby, dress you up and squeeze you every day for the past 16 years. Everyone who meets you falls in love with you. You are a special one Holly, one that will be with me forever. I can’t help but cry even though I know you are in a better place. Rest in peace, beautiful.

~written with love and appreciation for all the wonderful memories with my loving pug and best friend~