When you get to really know me I have a lot to say, you learn things I have been wanting to tell people every day. But it always got left on the back burner, slowly waiting in the corner.


In A Matter Of Time

In a matter of time

you'll see what's on my mind.

How I truly feel and what's really real.


My heart is afraid

that my mind may take

the growth I have yet to chase

and create it into something it wasn't meant to be in the first place.


So here I am sitting on something

trying to learn a new life lesson.

Might by crying over too many emotions

or attaching to someone I know will help me see God in the commotion.


I may be alone overthinking every daily action

and judging myself by over-analyzing the simple interaction.

My stutter plays a role and wants that satisfaction

to make me feel not good enough as my reaction.


In a matter of time

You'll see what was on my mind.

How I truly feel

and what's really real.


Still, I find myself not wanting anyone to really know how I truly think

because I'm afraid you might leave in a blink.

And somehow I find my escape

in the things I have always known to always fill that space


I have a wall and yet to the outside, it seems so small.

I put on a brave face for the show

when all I want to do is break down and let it go.


When you get to really know me I have a lot to say

You learn things I have been wanting to tell people every day.

But it always got left on the back burner

slowly waiting in the corner.


In a matter of time

You'll see what's been on my mind.

How I truly feel

and what's really real.


Love is a word that is so unknown

Growing up that word was twisted all alone.

So defense, manipulation, and repressed became home

Who knew they would start breaking and showing you what you should've known.


There's an elephant in the room and that me who can't talk like you

So I avoid and protect myself in case everything becomes blue.

I tend to always find comfort in what I have always known

Even though it's been a downright battle facing it alone.


Yet here I am trying to pick up a new way of thinking

I want to feel those old ways stop linking.

Sometimes when I stop I see

I see what the newness could truly be.


In a matter of time

you'll see what's really on my mind.

How I truly feel

and what's really real.