Growing up, if I wasn't dancing or doing homework, I was reading. And I read A LOT. I was the type of kid to sit down and read a book in one go or read several books at one time. If a book wasn't in my hand, I was bored. My favorite thing was to go to bookstores and flea markets and search through rows and rows of books. I could never pick what I loved more: the smell of a new book or an old book.

Now, I can't seem to find the energy to pick up a book and read a few pages. It seems to take all the life out of me as I try to keep up with characters and plots.

As a college student, the only books I seem to read are textbooks and no one really like reading those. How is it that I, one of the few students who read over 100 books in a year as part of an English assignment, can remember the last time I picked up a book?

One of my goals for 2018 was to read more. Least to say, ten months in, I'm failing that goal pretty hard. As my list of 'To Read' grows out of control, my 'Read' remains a pretty short length. Admitting this isn't something I'm proud of and I know for a fact my younger-self would be more than displeased. I find that reading for pleasure isn't something adults have time for between school, work, family, or other obligations. Maybe my goal to jump head first into my love for reading was a little ambitious or maybe one day when I have a set schedule, I'll be able to enjoy it more frequently.

For the rest of the year and into 2019, I want to take a break from my hectic, nonstop life and read. A few pages, or a chapter, a day can make good habits so when I do have time to read, instead of binge-watching a new Netflix show, I'd be more likely to pull out a book instead. The point of reading is to enjoy it, not force it. I believe at one point I was only forcing myself to read books I no longer wanted. Even now in college, when I try to read I feel as if I'm forcing myself to do so. One day, I dream of getting out of this 'reading slump', finding the perfect book, and rediscovering my love for reading once more.