When I was younger, I always imagined my older self having a significant other that was a combination of a Disney prince and a best friend. They would take me out of dates, have meaningful conversation with me, and be the kind of person I could proudly introduce to my family and friends.
When I got to college, I started flirting and dating, getting a lot of attention from people around me. However, I quickly noticed that all of these suitors had something in common. They only wanted to hook up and hang out. None of them wanted a full-out relationship with me.
Don't get me wrong, a lot of people like this, and it works for a lot of people, but it's just so prevalent with my generation. It's not like I'm asking for a ring, but I don't feel the need to be intimate with someone physically if they can't be intimate with me emotionally.
As a woman, I can do whatever I want with my body. And I want to keep my body sacred. I want to be intimate of course, but I want the kind of intimacy that has an emotional connection with the other person. I want a relationship to go with that intimacy. Something that isn't just centered around sex.
I know there are people like me out there, but the overall atmosphere of college and my generation seems to be that feelings are bad, and buying a girl pizza after hooking up is all that modern romance has to offer.
A few months back I met a guy and started hanging out with him. He was fun and we had a lot in common. Around the third time we started hanging out, he wanted to become more intimate. I told him no, and while he respected that, he never texted me or responded to me texts ever again. Cool huh?
Maybe I need to be single until everyone around me decides they want meaningful relationships, or just give up and pursue my back up plan of becoming a nun.