My brain revolves around question marks, and I’m starting to think my time in college has done this to me. In the midst of uncertainty, I’ll look back and miss being a naive high schooler who had it all “planned out” to marry my high school sweetheart and get a fun job that had nothing to do with my current intentions and majors. Let’s be honest though, aren’t we glad the plans have changed a million times over compared to what we thought we wanted at 18?

College has been a huge eye-opener for me while showing me what I do want and don’t want moving forward, but it’s done a lot better job of showing me what I don’t want for my future.

I don’t want a mediocre career.

I don’t want to be average.

I don’t want half-assed friends.

I don’t want a selfish man.

But there are some things I just don’t know about. Most of my days are filled with major classes, exams, budget meetings, writing articles, internships while trying to keep my sanity while checking off my extensive to-do list. In that moment in time, I have a task at hand that I must accomplish and that works for me because it’s certain.

Then the following questions start to roll in and I’m like a deer in headlights:

“You’re doing well in school, where do you want to go to graduate school?”

I don’t know.

“Oh, so you don’t want to go to law school?”

I don’t know.

“Where do you want to work when you graduate?”

I don’t know.

“Where do you want to live?”

I don’t know.

Some people know what they want, and others find it along the way. I’m one of those people finding it along the way— I take internships, network, try things out, and little by little, I’m finding the know. One thing I’ve learned in college is it’s completely okay to not know what you want your future to look like exactly. As you piece it together, set your goals, don’t settle, and be confident in your choices, knowing very well they may change. We are doing better than we think, even though we say “Idk” twenty times a day.