I Couldn't Make You Happy, So I Chose To Make Myself Happy Instead
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I Couldn't Make You Happy, So I Chose To Make Myself Happy Instead

I lost you, but I found myself.

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I'm sure that even as you read this, if you ever do read this, that you'll know it's about you. You'll know without a shadow of a doubt that when we were together, neither of us were happy. You'll remember all of the times you wanted me to be someone I wasn't, and know that I became a thousand times happier without you.

I'm sorry that I wasn't the girl you thought I was. I'm sorry that I couldn't change enough things about myself to become that girl. I'm sorry that I wasn't good enough for you. But I'm not sorry that we didn't work out.

The entire time we were together, I tried to convince myself that it would get better. That one day you would wake up and love the person that I was, that I am, and not the person you envisioned me to be. I hope that the next girl in your life is right for you. I pray that she is. Despite how things ended between us, I still pray for you.

In the end, leaving was one of the smartest things I've ever done. It gave me the freedom to stop hiding, to stop pretending, and to stop fighting for a relationship that in all honesty was over before it had even began. I lost you, but I found myself. I became the person I wanted to be, not the person you or anyone else wanted. I stopped caring what other people thought about me, and I became the happiest I've ever been.

I have no regrets about how things ended. I am confident in the fact that was meant to happen, happened. Just as it always does. I have faith that everything happens for a reason, and we were no exception. I don't say any of this to hurt you. And I know that it wouldn't even if that were my intention, because we both know what I'm saying to be true.

So yes, I am sorry that I couldn't make you happy. I hope that you're happier now. But no, I'm sorry that leaving you made me happier than I was the entire time we were together. We can't erase it. We can't forget it. But we can learn from it. I have, and I pray that the same is true for you.


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