I Might As Well Just Type It, Because I'm Never Going To Say It

I Might As Well Just Type It, Because I'm Never Going To Say It

Deep down, though, the feels are alive.


I've never been great at talking about feelings. I become a pile goo and it is awful for all parties involved. My friends could bring up a guy that I like and I will blush so hard. If you were to ask me if I liked someone, I would probably shrug it off and never tell you. Deep down, though, the feels are alive.

I've always loved writing about my "feels," but talking about them is completely different. Now, don't get your hopes up. I am not proclaiming my love for somebody in this article. Or at least, I don't think I am going to. We'll just have to see where this goes. I don't want to end up a mushy-pile of goo on you.

I don't think I'm alone in this, but have you ever met someone and been totally flustered? That's how I feel right now. Simply thinking about him sends down a path of "This is embarrassing- don't do this." Although, writing this is pretty close to my "this is embarrassing" moments. Anyways, my heart is pounding and my palms are sweating, and that's not because I forgot about my article for the week and I'm racing to finish.

It's because there's this guy who can make me laugh even when I'm not around him. He can make me smile even when we're nowhere near each other. It's only happened once before. Where I've liked a dude so much it makes me sweat. Gross, I know. I just know I have to get these feels out or else it will kill me.

If I was ever able to find a way to proclaim how I feel, I'm sure I would do it - but for now, I'm going to stick with telling you about how we met and all that came from that night.

I was with my friend and we were hanging out around town. We, being the weirdos we are, decided to go to a hotel bar. We're not as boujee as you think. Anyways, this guy was there. He was working the bar and front desk. I thought he was cute from the start. He and his coworker talked with my friend and me for four hours. Anything from hot dogs to school. I was smitten.

Now, this terrible thing called a crush has happened. I'm not good at crushes. I'm seriously not. I pretty much embarrass myself through every phase it. I surely embarrass myself from a simple conversation. I surely embarrass myself from being present or walking. And I'm promised to embarrass myself even more. All for the love.

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Why I Spend So Much Time With My Boyfriend

And I love it!

Many people think that spending too much time with your significant other is a bad thing. I think that wanting to spend time with them is a blessing. Don't get me wrong, we do not spend every waking minute together. We make sure that we save time for our friends and family, but in the end, we cherish our time together.

He brings out the best in me. When I first met my boyfriend, I knew he was something special. I didn't know what it was, but I knew that it would be important someday. I found out that when I am with him, I am an all-around happier person. I look at things in different ways, and I now know a whole new world of people. He has helped me overcome obstacles that have been holding me back for quite some time.

We enjoy each other's company. I can't even begin to tell you how many times we have just sat in silence simply knowing that you are in the company of someone who loves you is comforting. He makes things that would usually be boring a lot more fun. When we do homework together, he makes the work seem like it's not work, and things like a simple trip to Walmart ends up being a comedy show.

We are best friends. Many people say that they are best friends with their significant other. For us, it's true. I can tell him anything. There is no hiding things in our relationship, we come right out and say what we want to say.

He pushes me to succeed. Whether it is with weight loss or homework, he holds me accountable. When I start a new workout, he keeps me on track to be who I want to be. We make sure that we put homework before going out and that helps us in the long run. Giving up that pizza can be easy when you are spending time with someone you love.

He makes life seem not so hard. College can be hard and make life difficult. It seems that I always have something new happening or another meeting to attend. When I get stressed or overwhelmed, he makes sure that I take the time to put into perspective what really matters and focus on that. And when that fails, we go get McDonald's.

He supports me. He has never once told me that one of my ideas was stupid or out of reach. Whenever something new comes up that I think would be exciting, he is the first one to rally behind me and let me know that it is a good idea (even if it's not).

I love him. Love is a strong word, but I can honestly say I have never felt like this before. Between everything that he does for me, I do just as much for him simply because I love seeing him happy. Spending so much time together isn't hard to do because we love each other. If somewhere down the road we decide to split ways, I will still love him and he will still love me. That will never go away.

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Not Only Does Lack Of Sleep Make You Cranky, But It Also Affects Your Relationships

In fact, the lack of sleep affects your ability to fully engage in healthy and long-lasting relationships.


When I'm sleep deprived, I feel like the world is almost coming to an end. I'm the most cranky and irritable when I experience a lack of sleep. I'm sure many of you can relate to this and the struggles of it. It is one of the worst feelings to have because most of your actions get affected by it.

Sleep is an essential component in our lives because it provides us with the energy and resilience required to tackle memories and obstacles during the day. Usually, people who are sleep deprived will end up forgetting to complete simple tasks such as putting salt while cooking or picking something up from the patio. The inability to forget to do simple tasks stems from the lack of sleep experienced by many young adults like me.

As college students, we tend to underestimate the paramount importance of getting that target "8 hours" of sleep. Feeling sleepy while at a lecture is the eye-catching symptom for most sleep-deprived students and it is something that happens to me. In the same manner, sleep is closely tied to your relationships as well.

Recent studies have highlighted the fact that the amount of sleep you get does indeed affect your relationships. In fact, the lack of sleep affects your ability to fully engage in healthy and long-lasting relationships. You will most likely end up not reciprocating to what your significant other expects from you and that will end up straining the relationship even more. For instance, imagine if your S.O. wants to speak to you about something extremely important i.e. a life-changing decision. If you or your S.O. are sleep deprived, the conversation will go nowhere and chances are both of you will end up fighting.

Hence, sleep is crucial for the longevity of relationships as well as for your mental peace. Establishing a common bedtime is key towards developing a more closer bond with each other. In addition, mutual respect for each other's sleep patterns and work schedules plays a huge role in strengthening a couple's relationship. If both partners are able to balance their respective schedules, then they will still be able to spend some quality time together. Keep in mind, the cliché "8 hours" of sleep is extremely vital for a well-rested mind and body! You will end up becoming more productive throughout the day if you are not sleep deprived.

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