On January 1st, 2019 I downloaded this app called One Second Everyday. I figured it'd be fun to see how my life would change through the course of a year but I never thought I'd actually commit to it. One by one I watched people lose the commitment and forget about the app, but month after month I just kept doing it until it became apart of my daily routine. I got to the 6 month mark and decided I couldn't let myself not finish this, I've come this far.
Now it's January 2020 and i completed my goal of successfully filming one second of my life everyday. It was really difficult to put in so much effort into something that ultimately didn't matter, but I'm thankful I never stopped.
In the same way scrapbook moms marvel at the masterpiece of memories they've created, that's how I feel when I watch my six minute and fifteen second video of 2019. In those six minutes I met my boyfriend, went to new places, reached milestones, celebrated birthdays, moved into my first apartment, and met new people. However, those six minutes also show who I've lost throughout the year. People I no longer speak to as well as a life I no longer live. In a way, a new version of myself is born throughout the video.
My life at the beginning is drastically different than it is today. I knew it was bound to happen because that’s why I downloaded the app in the first place. I wanted to physically watch myself grow and change. Some parts were painful, but the moments that were beautiful are amazing to relive. Little things I forgot like watching Lost with my boyfriend, studying at the library with my friends, or just going out to eat, are nostalgic looking back. But along with the little moments, I caught live changing ones like when my boyfriends niece was born, watching my friends graduate college, moving out for the first time, and my 21st birthday. Every memory I captured is precious, and I now have an immense appreciation for the life I get to live everyday.