My Anxiety Told Me I Couldn't Do It

My Anxiety Told Me I Couldn't Do It

I was supposed to be in Italy right now, but about an hour before boarding time I just couldn't do it.


Panic, anxiety, all hitting me at once like a ton of bricks.

I was so excited for this trip to Italy. I really, really was. I had done all my research and felt safe and in the decision that I made.

But about an hour before boarding time, as I was sitting in the Emirates lounge, I started to panic. I'm going to a foreign country for five days all by myself. I was all of a sudden very scared and very nervous. And no, not the excited kind of nervous anymore.

My heart was beating out of my chest, I became very nauseous, to the point where I had to sort of cough to relieve some nausea. Regrets and second thoughts started setting in. I was already so homesick and had only been away from my room back in Clemson for twelve hours. I think that if I was traveling with someone, I wouldn't have been panicking so much and getting homesick so soon and easily.

Because everyone is in school and this was a last minute trip, no one was able to go with me.

Vincent and I talked, and we will go if he decides to not do a masters after graduating from undergrad from Clemson. My friend Jackie and I will go in September if he does decide to do his masters.

I will feel a lot less nervous and less homesick going with someone. I'm glad I at least tried though. I went as far as JFK airport from Charlotte airport, and I saw how I really felt about the situation the closer it got to boarding time.

My parents and brother were never happy that I was going to Italy alone. When I told them I was coming home, they were so relieved and thought that I made the right decision. My mom even said that she thinks it was my late Aunt Diane telling me to not to go.

Who knows, maybe if I ended up going, something bad might've happened to me.

Travel completely happy, don't travel 50% happy.

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To The High School Senior Feeling Like They're Losing Their Hometown Friends

Don't fret to much, if they are truly your best friends, you aren't gonna lose them.


When you grow up and leave home to go to college or whatever your plans are after high school, you and your hometown best friends promise to make time for each other. You promise to always get together over breaks and to visit each other if you aren't going to the same schools or living in the same town.

But you realize over time that maybe those promises aren't gonna be kept.

Life gets complicated. School starts to become harder and harder, there are extracurriculars and work, and trying to figure out the rest of your lives; things start to get in the way. Visiting starts to happen less and less, getting together over breaks gets more complicated, you try to stay in contact but the hours in the day seem to get shorter and shorter. There are too many things that you have to accomplish in one day that it's difficult to know if you can even get together.

You start to ask yourself "Am I losing my closest friends?"

And the answer to that question is no, your lives are changing and things are starting to become real but they will always be there. Just because you don't talk all the time or you go a few months without seeing each other, they are still your friends. They will always care and always be there. Don't stress about it too much, they are always gonna be there, it's just that your lives are pulling all of you in different directions and it can get hard to keep up with everyone because you are all so busy.

You are growing up but you're not necessarily growing apart!

If they are truly your best friends they will always be there, and you there for them. As time goes on, your lives will continue to change but you are always gonna be friends. Just know that they are there when you need them, and when you do get to see each other, it's like nothing has changed and you pick up right where you left off. Your friendship is important to all of you. Don't let a little bit of silence or a busy life cause problems. You haven't lost them, trust me, you all are just figuring out life. Don't take it personally when you don't talk for a while.

"Amigas, Cheetahs, Friends for life" — Cheetah Girls

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Unsurprisingly, 'Avengers: Endgame' Spoilers Have Hit the Internet

Leaked footage came and went through popular social media outlets yesterday, and dedicated fans are scared to have the biggest movie of all time ruined for them.


After eleven years of buildup and twenty-two movies, 'Avengers: Endgame' is finally hitting theaters next week. It seems like it's taken too long for the millions of anxious, dedicated fans left waiting to see the fate of their favorite heroes and the end of what is now referred to by Marvel Studios as the 'Infinity Saga.' However, it seems that many of those fans have learned some of the crucial plot points of the movie a bit too early.

Leaks of footage and descriptions of said footage surfaced out of the blue yesterday on outlets like Twitter, Instagram, and Facebook, leaving most of the fanbase in an uncurable rage. Some have waited for these character arcs since two-thousand-eight when the first Iron Man movie took the screen. Fortunately, the footage was taken down from most of the internet soon after its posting and is becoming harder and harder to find by the minute.

Anthony and Joe Russo, the directors of both of the latest Captain America films, 'Winter Soldier' and 'Civil War,' and 'Avengers: Infinity War,' are at the helm of the latest Marvel installment. They've issued a sincere letter on their Twitter, pleading for fans to keep the secrets of the film to themselves. Many have been theorizing the movie's plot, character arcs, and finale since the end of the last movie in May of last year, so this long of a wait would be catastrophic to ruin.

The movie is projected to be one of the biggest movies of all time. in pre-sales alone, 'Endgame' sold almost double the tickets of 'Star Wars: The Last Jedi,' 'Avengers: Infinity War,' 'Aquaman,' and 'Captain Marvel' combined. The day of the ticket's release, nearly every possible online outlet to purchase tickets were flooded and proceeded to crash, leaving some fans to wonder if they would even get theirs. To say the least, the hype is serious.

If you're adamant on avoiding spoilers, now is the time to do something about it. Usually, a week in advance to a movie this big is the riskiest time for leaks, so watch your media outlets. There are countless filters that can be applied to your social media; excluding character names, cast members, or even the entire movie title from your feed. Another great avenue for protection (while difficult) is deleting social media altogether. While this might be painful, if you truly want to save the surprise for the theater, it might be your best bet. Even tuning out of the internet for the next week might be sufficient if you want to be completely sure you don't have the movie ruined for you. You never know who's online, waiting to wreck your years of watching and waiting.

'Avengers: Endgame' hits theaters on April 26th. Be sure not to miss it, and be careful out there.

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