Always sell yourself high. Don't go low, is the line I am trying to adopt in my life. When you are apologizing, it feels like I am selling myself short, when I should be selling myself high. Saying the words, "I am sorry," gets redundant for me. It feels like I can never say the right things or say something that I should have never said. My actions sometimes can cause people to get turned off by who I am. And then they would would not want to be around me.
I always question myself. Saying things like, "Why aren't these girls talking to me, why aren't these people texting me back, what did I do to deserve this?" And then I thought, I need to stop caring what these people think. As I have stated before, apologizing is selling yourself short. In today's society people act like we are not allowed a second chance, or even a third chance.
We are humans, NOT ROBOTS. We cannot always get everything perfect. I guess that is why companies are trading in human labor for automated labor. It is much cheaper and it does not come with emotions. But that is a story for another day. It can be tiresome trying to please people and I always feel like I cannot truly be myself. Because if I truly be myself, then I will say something that is not socially acceptable and then people (mostly women) will think I am weird. I mean what has this society come to. We are a politically correct society, and it sickens me.
But I guess you have to sell yourself low just to get the highs in life. We all have to portray this persona of a sane face, just to get people to like us. And I am tired of it. To the people out there who feel like they are not good enough, or doesn't like who they are, or who they are becoming, keep being that person. Yes change is necessary in order to make advancements in life, but not all change is good. Mostly people change because they were instructed to or forced to. It was not organic. But to those people that are down in the dumps, always sell yourself high. You will be waiting a lifetime, if you are waiting for the world to endorse you as being a good person or to hang out with you.
I feel like I am in a place that really cannot trust anybody. It takes me back to days where I miss my grandmother/everything wholeheartedly. She loved people unconditionally and never wavered it. I didn't have to sell her on anything. She was already sold on who I was.
I did not have to prove I was a nice guy. She knew I was. But people are not like her and it is hard to find people like her. It is imperative to give yourself motivational factors that will get you through life and pray to whomever higher being you serve, and please yourself. Life is too short trying to please others. We will always fail.
But give people what they do not want. It is not like they are going to give you what you want, right? Do what makes you feel best. They do not want you to be arrogant. They do not want you building yourself up, or showing braggadocio. As DJ Khaled would say, "stay away from they." It is imperative, because if you accomplish this, you will be on your way to being more secure and living a fearless life. Then you will be playing a good hand and selling high.