Dear friend,

I hope you are reading this. I hope you are reading this and thinking about us. Not the us you recently tried to tell yourself "us" was, but the us that we are... well were. I hope you are reading this knowing why I am writing this. I hope you are reading this knowing the condition I am writing this; I know you know me beyond well enough to know how I am right now. I hope you are reading this wondering how I am. I hope you are reading this with some sort of remorse and regret. I hope you are reading this simply because you know I miss you, and what I hope most of all -- you miss me too.

The sad thing about friendships ending is that they do not simply die as quick as death. With death all ties are cut off, and it is the end of the opportunities to communicate. The rotten thing about friendships ending is a lot, but the few that are relevant to this article are the fact that there is always a way and choice to communicate, and it is normally one person's decision to end it. Ouch. The choice to stop talking/checking/caring what your friend that you once dedicated hours upon hours of your daily life simply talking to -- nothing. What sucks about friendships ending, is that you chose to end it.

The sad thing is, I want nothing more than your happiness. And the even more sad thing is, I'm not. I am also not begging -- nor will I. Dear friend, I wish you would reminisce and stop being pessimistic. You are so great, so do not start looking to the negatives in your life -- you are better than that. Dear friend, I wish you let yourself live again and stop playing with your demons. You used to be so happy -- but so did I. Dear friend, I am not angry or hateful towards you -- even though I should be. Dear friend, I am just so sorry. I wish we were as close as we once were, because I need you now.

I hope you are reading this and your day is great. The day is so great that you ate your lunch outside and wore shorts to class. I hope you are reading this and you haven't coughed all day. You feel so great because you slept an entire night comfortably. I hope you are reading this, because you saw I shared this article and you wondered why I liked it. And I hope you like it too. I hope you are reading this article and you are starting to think. Think to the point where you are becoming irritated, because your emotions are intensifying. I hope you are reading this because you lost your best friend too. I hope you are reading this, because you wanted reassurance that you are being missed. I hope you are reading this because not seeing my name on your phone or in between classes or after dinner or at parties or at all... is starting to haunt you. Part of me desperately hopes just maybe, you are heartbroken too.

I hope you are reading this because you miss me.

I hope you are reading this because I crave and need you to -- because I miss you.

Dearest friend, I hope you are reading this.