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Holes

A poem

 Hali Neal
Oct 25, 2016
Valencia College
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I wring my hands and rub my nose

desperately looking for somewhere to divert all my nervous energy.

I don't want to do this anymore.

I don't want to fight.

I don't want to talk to anyone who's not a professional because it feels like most don’t understand.

I don't want to feel like I'm a ship full of holes just waiting for that last tidal wave to finish me off.

Most of all, I don't want to think about how much I love you

because apparently that's only a version of you that surfaces when you're not being a tornado of self-destruction, extending your misery to anyone unfortunate enough to get close to you.

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