Life offers us many chances to do and experience great things, and with those things, fear is normally not far behind. Throughout my life I have had a sinking feeling of fear that would always follow right behind opportunity. I think as humans we are quiet humorous... Whether it is in love or opportunity we seem to be brave till we actually have the chance to take what we worked so hard for. We have no problem chasing down that job, or that chance of finding romance, although we at first have no idea if the object is obtainable. There is little anxiety, perhaps there is little to lose. As soon as those things are set before our eyes, with a label that says it is for the taking, we often get scared and back away. Never in my life have I been more close to doing something musically successful than I am right now. It is something I have wanted all my life. I have spent countless hours perfecting my craft and writing songs, and yet the fear remains. Even when sitting in the studio the other day, and after successfully writing my first song, I had that creeping thought that maybe I couldn't do it. Now why would that thought even graze my mind, after success, nothing bad has happened yet, so why would I think of such things. With all of this being said we have to realize a few things. We have to realize that the fear we set up in our minds is normally blown out of proportion, and even if we crash and burn life goes on. We also have to realize that we are not the only ones scared of the future so we must be easy on ourselves.
Too many times I have let chances in my life pass by, but for what reason? Looking back I regret none of the chances I have taken. Even when I was left heartbroken or the time I played the drums and more or less froze on stage. The beauty of failure is that even when it happens, we know that it makes the next set of failure that less scary, or hard. I have had plenty of chances to do things in life, but for some reason I back away. I am a fairly good dancer for example, but why do I shy away from dancing in front of people. I had danced in a dance circle in front of an entire prom somewhere in Indiana. Now I had never went to this school and it turned out alright, yet I hold back from dancing in-front of a few friends that I know. Why? Why is what is easiest, hardest to us sometimes. Why is it that we falter every-time there is no reason to fear. What is the worst that can happen to us?
With all of this being said, I want to break away from that voice that says "no", the voice that says something is far away when I see it in-front of my eyes. All I have to do is continue down that long awaited path, and take that last step that is not uphill, but downhill and easy.