I have an upsetting, maybe even embarrassing confession to make. I have spent the last two years running after a boy who isn’t interested.
Whenever I saw him, I hoped he would change his mind about me, and we could have the happily-ever-after relationship that I wanted us to have. But that never happened. It was nothing against him and nothing against me, it just didn’t happen.
Of course, I would move on for a little while, go on dates with other people, and even have feelings for other people. But, as soon as those feelings were over, my mind flooded with thoughts of him.
Whenever I saw him, I had these bittersweet feelings. When I was with him, I was overjoyed. But I knew as soon as we parted ways I would be upset. I knew that it was just one more time that I was falling for him, and he didn’t seem to notice.
Recently, I have decided to set myself free. I have decided to throw away all of those negative emotions associated with this relationship, and with him, and accept that things will never work out the way I wanted them too. That is just life, and it isn’t anyone’s fault. Just because I feel one way, doesn’t mean he does. I have learned that I cannot keep chasing someone who doesn’t want me that way. It is not fair to me, or to him.
Trust me, this has not been my favorite lesson to learn, but it was definitely an important one. It was hard for me to come to terms with all of this, and even with the fact that this could happen again someday with a different boy. I think next time I will be more prepared. I have slowly gotten over this boy and have realized that God meant for us to just be friends. Sometimes it hurt, but I believe that all things happen for a reason. I believe that there is someone out there who is perfect for me, that I haven’t even met yet. I also know that there is someone for him too, and unfortunately, it isn’t me.
With all of this being said, I know I can’t be the only one out there who feels worthless because of a failed relationship. I also know I can’t be the only one who feels unlovable because of one person who didn’t love them.
Ladies, I hope you know that you are not any less valuable just because one boy didn’t want to pursue you. I hope you know that just because he didn’t want you like you wanted him, someone else will.
So, don’t give up just yet. And remember that with every unrequited love, there may just be a valuable friendship to hold on to.
I definitely know that this can be a challenging thing to come to terms with, but I also know that the right person will come along, and it will be worth the wait.