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I Have Blamed Myself More Than I Should

How I try to overcome my lack of confidence.

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I never thought an article like this would ever come from me. It's one of those stories that I haven't wanted to share for a variety of different reasons. First of all, the story is a personal one and the response I receive from those who read it means the world to me. I'm afraid that it'll come down to two different reactions - they'll either love it and be supportive, or they'll tell me I'm wrong and I'll be okay.

Well, it's time to get out of my comfort zone and take a risk.

For a lot of my life, I have not been confident about a lot of different aspects about myslef. I don't want to say I have low self esteem because that is kind of a touchy topic. But mainly, it's a result of who I've associated myself with throughout my life. I have been through a long series of friendships and relationships, many of which are no longer relevant. That's where the problem comes in; I always feel that I am the one to blame, and I can't help it.

I will admit that I really am the one to blame in some cases. I've messed up a few friendships and I have to live with that; it's the worst feeling ever. But even when it's not my fault, I still find a way to blame myself. As a result, I tend to feel that I don't deserve to be associated with someone. Putting it more severely, I feel that I am not good enough for an individual. Perhaps I'm not smart enough. Maybe I'm not talented enough. I might not fit in because I have different interests and opinions and that makes us incompatible, but still, I think it's on me. Why can't I be like everyone else is?

One year ago as I began to attend college, I also began to give myself a new vision to improve my confidence. The truth is, I just can't be like the people I was once associated with. You know why? Because if I tried, it would mean that I am being a completely different person. I would no longer be myself and that is the last thing I want. I decided that it was time to stop worrying about what other people do and only do whatever makes me happy.

NOBODY IS PERFECT. You will make mistakes, but you can't stop them from happening once. At the end of the day, you will learn and grow from them so that you can prevent them from occurring again. That shouldn't stop you from living your life in your own way. As long as you are satisfied, you will be in healthier friendships and relationships. You will be surrounded by people that you get along with and people that increase your happiness. Sure enough, you will be good enough for both yourself and those you meet.


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