To My Guardian Angel Grandparents,

I wish you could see me right now. Be here, on this earth, to interact with me. I wish you could have been waiting outside the auditorium after my musical, on the sidelines cheering during my soccer games, on the sidewalk waiting for me after graduation. I wish you could have been here, in the flesh, for all my biggest milestones.

I know you are watching down on me, sometimes I can even feel it. Whenever I'm scared and I become at ease, I know it is because of Papa Mike and Grandma Becky. I think about you guys more than you know. How different my life could be if I had you guys here with me. How much I wish I could have spent a few more years with you before you went to heaven.

See, the thing about losing your grandparents as a baby is that it seems normal not to have them in your life. But, as I get older I can't help but focus on the void I have. I love you guys deeply, but I wish I would have gotten to make some memories with you.

It sucks when someone asks about you because really, I can't tell them much. I can tell them how you passed on, or that Papa Mike loved to fish or how Grandma Becky was one of the most caring and sweetest women to walk this earth. I wish I could tell them about the memories we made, but we didn't have much time to make them.

I bet you are watching me. Looking down on me, seeing my big moments and even my small ones. What else can I say besides this: I really hope you are looking over me. I feel like I have two very special angels rooting for me in the sky. You guys are up there, and sometimes I feel like you guys are the reason I've accomplished so much. You are the reason I had the courage and trust to continue on in the hard moments. You guys were the little voice in the back of my head saying, "Go for it, baby girl."

You left me so soon, and that makes me very sad. But, without that sadness, I never would have gotten to live with Auntie. She became my big sister who I would never have had otherwise. You gave me the best dad in the world. He's my superhero, and you guys made one hell of a son. Thank you for putting amazing people in this world to help make me into the person I am today.

I look for you sometimes in the sky. I see the pretty colors and know it's going to be okay. Whenever I hear "Good Riddance (Time of Your Life)" by Green Day, I can't help but think of you guys. I hope that big sky up there is treating you well. I hope you know I'm always thinking of you. And, I hope you know, I love you very, very much.

Love,

Your First Grandbaby