The Untold Truth about Adulthood

There were many days that I would find myself sitting on the couch being lectured by my parents because I was a blue-eyed, blonde hair troublemaker. As I was rolling my teenaged eyes and huffing my breath, I always thought to myself, “I cannot wait to get out of here.” Let’s get real, we all thought our parents were ruining our lives at one point or another. I had many “older” people I looked up too. They were in what I perceived to be the glorious, big people world. These people did what they wanted to on their own time. Now tell me that life doesn’t sound amazing.

Well, I’m here to tell you it’s all a lie. For every time someone told me being a grown-up was fun, I seem to regret everything. Okay, maybe I am being a little dramatic, but you get the picture. Truth is my nights are full of tears. I wake up tired and go through my day thinking about everything but work and homework. I like to think I’m a fantastic procrastinator. Honestly, it’s the little things I took for granted when being a child. My dad always made sure the house was secure and that we were all tucked in. Now, I have my own place. I’m in charge of my own safety and the security of my well-being. I miss those old nights. The bills never seem to stop and neither does the drama. I couldn’t wait to be an adult because the catty girls, would in my mind evaporate. Turns out, that’s also a lie.

For every lie, there is a truth. For every tear, there is a dance party. When I’m sad, I have friends to pick me up. I get to choose what to do with my time. Life is nothing short of a crazy ride. Yes, I have made decisions in life that I wish I could go back and change or even burn, but I’m stuck with the memories. I am learning to allow myself grace in this overbearing world. I’m not perfect and I’m far from perfecting adulthood. I mean has anyone really perfected adulthood? When I secure my home at night, I get to take pride in the idea of it’s mine. The lights turn on because I pay my bills. I get to soak in warm bubble baths because I work hard. It’s important to relax in life. I’m 23-years-old and trying to master my master's program. Well of course, while I go to the beach and Disney in between.

All this to say, don’t rush where you are at in life. Learn to love yourself in a pure way. The best thing I have ever learned to do is let things roll off my shoulders. I am not meant to carry the weight of the world. You are not meant to carry the weight of the world. Quit being catty, and realize the drama isn’t worth it. Own who you are and be proud of what you are accomplishing. After all, you have a whole lifetime to perfect your life.