They say time heals all wounds, but I would have to disagree. Grief is one of the most intense and deepest wounds that never seems to heal completely. It varies for everyone, but from experience, no matter how much antiseptic or Band-Aids I put on, the hole in my body is still with me.
I lost my grandmother several years ago and I have not completely accepted her absence in my life. The hole she left in my heart aches and reminds me of its presence in some of the most important moments in my life. I ached when I graduated from high school and again when I graduated from college-- big moments she should have been there for. I can feel the wounds when I travel to places or do things she would like. It’s not just the big moments, the small moments hurt just as much, if not more so. When I am going through something and want her advice it cuts me inside. My confidant has left me to be replaced with this nasty, clingy grief.
Does the grief every truly go away? I cannot say for sure. Everyone experiences grief differently and has different triggers. One thing I can say for sure if you experience intense grief, that person meant something to you, and it is okay to feel the way you do. If you need a moment alone, take it. If you need to do something in honor of them, do it. Some days are easier than others, but try to honor and remember your loved ones every day you live.