This poem was born from my thoughts during a recent family weekend trip, the euphoric emotions I felt. Ironically, I took the same trip four years ago and I was headed towards my senior year of high school. Now going towards my senior year of college, I took the same trip. It feels so perfect, like it's meant to be. I felt this overwhelming sense of euphoria when going on this trip with my family. It was so relaxing and it gave me flashbacks to four years ago when I took the same trip and felt the same way going to my senior year of high school. I feel better than I did then, more self aware. This poem was inspired by those feelings and how happy I am now.
So much green,
a beautiful green light,
It seems so bright and vivid,
green leafs and trees,
I haven't felt this way in four years,
driving done that road after four years,
it looks just as good as last time,
maybe even better?
It must be a good thing.
I feel like last time but only better.
I've come so far,
last time time I felt like this I was 16
going towards my final phases of high school,
so happy and sure of myself.
But then my life fell apart,
things are going to different this time,
I know it.
Now twenty, more confident than ever,
I see the green so vividly.
All the different shades of green.
Maybe because I'm happy again
maybe because things are getting better,
maybe because my life is coming together again.
After three years I feel whole,
each year and step was
a piece of me becoming whole once more.
All those jagged, jaded
pieces of me are coming home.
Those pieces spread between 2014 and 2017,
I was broken that time and It took so long for me
to become me again.
I was broken and shattered
nothing seemed to fix me.
I couldn't find a solution,
I needed this time to become whole again,
I don't feel broken anymore.
The green Is bright and striking.
Vivacious and living.
So much green in my life and
in my surroundings.
My life is becoming green again
Goodbye to all the waves
of sadness.
I am ready to be immersed in the green.
I don't feel like I'm sinking anymore,
I'm actually climbing the trees and finally
seeing all the green.