Dear Weasley,

It is been less than a month since you crossed the Rainbow Bridge. I am not going to lie, I really wish I could have gotten to say goodbye to you one final time and give you a pet to let you know everything was going to be okay.

I know it was for the best. You were in pain. I knew it was coming, especially since you were getting older and starting to have problems. However, I really wanted to be there for you one last time. It has been hard being away from home to get a degree. I know you probably looked down the hallway wondering if I was coming out of my room, wanting to jump on my bed and take up my pillow. Every time I called my parents and they put me on speaker, my mom later sent me a photo of you looking at the phone wondering if I was trapped inside the phone.

Here is the goodbye I wish I could have given you:

I wish I could have given you one last walk around the block, dressed you up in more bow ties, fed you more chicken, and have you taste the things you never could have but always begged for, like bacon, chocolate, and even cheeseburgers. I would have given you the best last day ever.

I would have let the ones you love say goodbye to you: the family, of course, Peter, Jackie, Uncle Matt, Susan, Kelly, Brian, Jax, Jon, Sara, Aunt Karen, Uncle Randy, and so many more people.

I know it was also the decision of Mom and Dad, and I know that it was the humane thing to do in the end rather than to prolong your suffering.

Sometimes I can't help but feel guilty about not being there in your final moments. I wonder if you felt like I had abandoned you, I wonder if you were looking for me then. I wonder if you knew how much I loved you and how I would have been there for you if I could have been. I wish you would have known and have seen how much love I have for you in your final moments.

However, I also know you are up there having a ball, you aren't in pain anymore, and you have many new friends in those who have also crossed the bridge. You have been reunited with your birth mama Aunt Jacki and are probably giving her slobbery kisses, you are also with Grandpa again probably sitting on his lap and taking up the bed, and you also got to meet my childhood dogs, Coco and Buffy. Say hi to them for me up there!

I will never forget you my best friend ever. You were the best listener, one of the reasons that I smiled when I came home for breaks. I will miss putting those Snapchat filters on you, I will miss it when you jump on my bed in the morning and snuggle up to me, I will miss watching movies with you laying on my lap (especially when it's "Harry Potter"), but most of all, I will miss the unconditional love that you have always given me.

Love always,

Your best friend, Lisa