Dear God,

I feel completely blind. I feel lost. I don't know what to grip onto for clarity on where we're going or what we're doing. I keep sensing you asking more of me that I'm excited for but I'm not sure that I have within me.

I keep sensing you calling me higher but I don't know where to pull from for what you're asking of me. I'm lost. I feel like I'm succeeding and failing at the same time. I'm not sure how to gauge if I'm being effective or not.

This feels like such a strange place to be in with you. I feel like I'm making progress but I can't see if I'm meeting the mark that you're asking of me to meet. Am I pleasing you? Am I following you?

Am I doing the best I can? I can't tell because I feel as though I'm giving all that have, I'm not giving enough and that I have more to give all the same time. God what is this?

Help me to buckle down. I must be completely dependent on you during this time because I don't know if I have what you're asking of me. This feels so much higher and bigger than me. This feels too heavy and I don't know if there's enough within me to do what you're asking of me.

I feel you stretching me. I feel you constantly stretching me past my own beliefs of what I think that I can do. It's nerve-racking, painful and exciting all at the same time. Lord help me to depend on you. Lord help me to tap into the holy spirit for my help.

I want to do my part but I'm not sure how to do this. I need you. I need you. I need you. I need you. I need you. I need you. I need you. I need you. I need you. I know that you are with me. You will never leave me nor forsake you.

The evidence that I can do this is in your demand of me to do it. I can do it because you asked me to. You wouldn't ask me to do anything that I couldn't do. You will never leave me nor forsake me. You are always within me. I will hold onto these truths. I will lean on these truths to get me through this stretching.

I will survive this stretching because I trust you. I trust you. I trust you. I trust you. I trust you with my life. I trust you with the skills you have given me. I trust you with where you're taking me. I trust you with what you say I can do. I trust you with who you say I am.

I trust you using me as a vessel because this isn't about me. This is about serving you and glorifying you with my life. I trust you with this assignment. I trust you with this season. I trust you forever and always.

I love you Lord.

In Jesus' name I pray,

Amen.