People don't understand. They never do. I don't blame them. It's hard to understand something that you've never been through.
People don't understand that having a mental illness makes you react to situations in a different way than normal people would.
People don't understand that having "daddy issues" gives you weird insecurities that seem stupid to everyone else.
People think it's stupid that you're so afraid to eat in front of people because they don't understand there was no one was around when you were growing up to tell you how beautiful you were just the way you are.
People think it's stupid that we despise the look of our feet because no one was around to tell us how beautiful every part of our body was when we were little.
Girls like us don't react like normal girls.
Girls like us think too hard into things.
Girls like us always have some regret.
When a normal person experiences a heartbreak after being with a guy for only a short amount of time, they'll cry for a few weeks and move on. But for us, it hits so much harder. It leaves us feeling not good enough and unworthy. It leaves us feeling hopeless and defeated. It leaves us wanting to be left alone in the dark, curled up in a ball and never wanting to get out of bed. It leaves us wishing for death.
Girls like us get attached easily because no one ever held onto us. We build up a picture in our heads at the slightest glimmer of hope because we think, this is finally our time. And that may sound unrealistic, but that's how girls like us think.
We want a fantasy happy ending. We want to believe that we can do anything, even if we know that's not the truth. Because that's the thing — we're aware we're being unrealistic. We know that's not the truth. But there's a part inside of our brain that takes it a step further and says, "Who says that's the truth? Who says that's unrealistic?" The logical people say so. But we're dreamers. And when we put our minds to it, we make our dreams come true.
Girls like us want a happy ending more than anyone else.
Girls like us feel so many emotions.
Girls like us feel sad.
Girls like us feel overwhelming happiness.
Girls like us feel depressed.
Girls like us feel numb.
Girls like us feel something.
That's the thing about girls like us, we feel everything twice as hard.