I've been in your shoes.
You feel stuck with no way out. Trapped in a maze with no map anywhere in sight. No one is there to give you clues. Nobody is there to tell you which way to go or how to get there. Stuck circling, over and over. Feeling as though your life is on a total stand still.
Every door you try to open, gets slammed in your face. You constantly search for answers, to turn up empty handed. With nothing to fulfill the questions circling in your head. You take a different path every chance you get, in hopes that, eventually, you'll find the right one to go down. Always ending with frustration, disappointment and worst, depression.
Stop.
Take a deep breath and just stop. Stop frantically searching for answers, stop searching for new directions to take, stressing yourself out to your breaking point.
Just. Stop.
I know, it's much easier said than done. But I was once there.
I was once in your place. Watching everyone's lives come together and falling right into place where they want to be. Fulfilling their dreams, falling in love, succeeding in all their goals. Leaving you as though you are falling behind.
You're not.
You're time will come too. When all the missing pieces fall into place and you'll feel content.
The pain will subside. But you must stop searching for your final destination. You need to pause and enjoy the journey it's taking you to get there. I know it can be heartbreaking, disappointing. But the journey, often times, is more satisfying than the final outcome. Sometimes, when you stop and enjoy the trip, you appreciate your accomplishment that much more.
But you have to stop forcing it.
You have to stop trying to make your life into something that it's just not meant to be. Nothing in your life should ever feel forced. Life is a journey that should be appreciated. It will take you exactly where you are meant to go. Life will not just give you all that you want, but it will not take you forcing things to happen either. With force, comes aggression, with aggression, comes sadness.
Life will guide where you want to go, if it is meant to go there.
"If it's meant to be, it'll be, it'll be, but baby just let it be..."
I know you're feeling lost, probably scared and confused. I was too. Many are, just like you. Everyone gets this way at some point in their lives.
More often than not, it can feel scarier, letting fate decide your future. But you cannot give up. Never throw the towel in. Continue to push yourself to be the best you can be. Don't push yourself to be something you aren't, just because that's how everyone else's lives have worked out.
Your plan, isn't going to be the same as everyone else's plan.
You are strong, you are beautiful. And you will get through this.