On my drive home one night, the song "Worthy of Your Name" came on by Passion. I'm sure you've heard of this song (if you listen to Christian music) because, let's get real, it's the bomb.
At first, I didn't think anything of it and, honestly, I didn't care much for it. I go through seasons of my life, just like everyone, where I'll listen to the same five songs on repeat; others I won't give any attention to. Until one day, I let this song play. I let it fill my speakers on high and I ultimately, without realizing, let it fill my heart and mind.
This song, along with multiple others, are resonating in my life at this moment. This season in particular is bringing a lot of self doubt, insecurity, worry, and anxiety; with college, switching jobs, trying to find a house, and just trying to keep my life and sanity in one piece. And the Lord just effortlessly placed these songs, this one specifically, in my life to speak peace over all of my pessimism.
The song describes the Lord with multiple adjectives; my author, maker, ransom, savior, refuge, hiding place, answer, saving grace, my healer, and so many more. But this one line changes the game; "On the day when You arose the darkness ran for cover. For the King of Kings has claimed His throne now until forever."
Amen!
I'm not sure about you, but that just lights up my life. That one simple line brings a never ending covering of peace in a split moment. It's like I can feel my heart just calm for that moment when singing or hearing those words. What a beautiful feeling!
The song goes on to say; "You're my hope in the shadows, my strength in the battle, my anchor for all my days." How amazingly relentless and refreshing is our Lord.
I can talk about Jesus all day, every day. But I felt an urge to write this because in my personal life I'm struggling with finding where I belong. I'm having a hard time finding my people and who builds me up towards the Lord but also just makes me feel welcome, instead of like a burden. That's a hard thing to do in college, especially when there's more than 20,000 students on one campus. It's really hard.
My point is, although relationships come and go and I may feel alone, there's one friendship that is forever present and steady.
The Lord is my hiding place. He is my rescue. And He is my saving grace. There is no other name greater, more wonderful, and more powerful than Him, my Jesus. He calms my soul and he levels my mind to go with Him, to beat with His heartbeat.
Life is hard. And life is beautiful. If we didn't go through hardships, how would we know what is beautiful? How would we know when we see the light if we don't go through darkness beforehand?
No matter the season, I will forever remain standing firm with one foot forward, ready to receive the light and blessings that God has prepared for me.
I pray you will too; because what a beautiful life it is.
"Trust in the Lord with all your heart and do not lean on your own understanding. In all your ways acknowledge him, and he will make straight your paths." -Proverbs 3:5-6