Repeatedly being left on "open."
Late nights overthinking about him.
Wondering if you will ever find someone who likes you back.
Exhaustion.
For as long as I can remember, I have been chasing. I have been chasing certain guys. I have been chasing this idea of something that won't come to fruition. I am tired. I am tired of hoping. I am tired of having to lower my expectations. I am tired of wishing guys had the guts to approach me.
I am tired of wondering what is wrong with me.
I am not here to tell you that "there are plenty of fish in the sea" or to "just give it time." It sucks. You feel like everyone around you is dating but you're also mad that no one wants to commit anymore. How can relationships be so taboo and mainstream at the same time?
I am here to tell you that there is nothing wrong with you.
The problem lies with our generation and the standards and norms we have set for ourselves. You deserve to have a guy come up to you and ask for your number. You deserve to be taken on a real date that doesn't involve Netflix and his bed.
You deserve to be with someone who wants to be with you.
So sit down. Listen to sad breakup songs but then listen to Beyonce and know that you are flawless. Look hot and feel hot because you are. Do not waste your time on guys who are more worried about "Fortnite" than texting you back. Do not give guys the opportunity to give you endless excuses.
Put your running shoes away and throw on your heels.
You don't need to chase anyone.