Ever since I was a young girl, I have always been raised to have a kind heart by helping other people if they asked for it, being friendly to others and accepting people for who they are. I have continued to believe and follow that value my whole life. However, I feel like my heart is even bigger now than it was before and I am finding it harder to accept my "big heart" personality that I have before.

Most of you may know the concept of having a big heart. It's a characteristic that makes you care with your whole heart. This could be based on how you were raised or experiences that you faced growing up that made a person to be like this. Someone who has a big heart often puts themselves before others when it comes to anything. If you are in need, they will be there with a tissue box, a hug, or whatever you need. They often always apologize for something even if it isn't their fault. If you had a bad day, they will apologize that it happened to you.

However, this trait can hurt. When people with big hearts start dating, they fall in love in a way that is only seen in the cartoons. They fall in love with their whole heart; focused on their significant other. When that relationship ends, it is heart-wrenching, especially to someone with this trait. You give your heart away as a gift and they throw it away. Some even stomp it on the ground until it is in a million pieces that you have to pick up on your own. Another disadvantage is being taken advantage of by "friends" that just want some kindness but don't give anything back. The worst part is when someone is hurt, especially when you caused that hurt. Your heart aches with theirs. You feel personally guilty for the hurt they are feeling that even when your life is great, there is always something to be worried about.

I would get told in school by classmates that I am too nice. I would never hurt a fly or let alone tell off someone who was clearly walking all over me. Throughout the latter part of high school, it truly bothered me. Why can't I just worry about myself? It was not that easy. If someone asked for something, I couldn't say no. I would be extremely hard on myself to be less caring. I would do it so much that I would be doubting myself, all who I was and who I wanted to be.

In the past few weeks, I have realized that this characteristic isn't so bad after all. My emotions are God's gift to me. His gift is that I am a truly giving person. I will not shy away from a person who is in need. My friends tell me that they love this aspect about me. The fact that I could be so pure and genuine to someone I hardly know was amazing to them.

Positivity glows in a room of darkness. A person with a big heart will always find the happiness in a day full of gloom. Not everyone has such a big heart. This trait is special. If you get the chance to someone with a big heart, consider yourself lucky. I have accepted that this is who I am. To those with a big heart, you should be proud too.