I don't know about you, but nothing is more difficult than spring semester.
This is my second spring semester in college, and somehow, it always puts me in a funk. After having an entire month off for winter break, it's hard for me to get myself motivated to come back for another entire semester.
Somehow, the three months of summer is just enough time off, but the one month for winter is never refreshing. Spring always comes around, and it always knocks me out.
Lately, it's been hard to find the motivation to do anything. My homework, work out, or even get out of bed. There's something about this time of year that just makes me not quite myself anymore.
So, here's to the girl who hasn't quite been herself lately:
I know that things can get hard. Between all of your responsibilities, your feelings, and your friends, it's easy to feel like you're letting everything go and making everyone disappointed. I know you've been struggling, and I know that no one really understands how you feel.
When you start to feel the type of sadness or emptiness that just consumes you, it's difficult to try and escape it. You want to talk about it, but you're not sure how, or who to even tell. You know you have friends, but it really doesn't feel like it.
I know it feels unfair. I know it feels like it'll never end.
But, that's not true.
It will get better. It might not get better today. It might not get better tomorrow. In fact, I can't tell you when it will get better. What I can tell you, is that one day, you'll realize you're not as sad as you were yesterday. Then, maybe the next few days you'll feel even less sad.
You can do this. You have done this before, and I think we both know this may not be the last.
Wake up, take a breath, and tackle the day. Take the time to do something you love. Remind yourself that you can find joy in little things and that there are some things you can control. You can draw that picture. You can paint your nails. You can take a walk on the beach. You can do something for yourself, and remind yourself that you are alive. You are breathing, and you will do this.
You can, because you are strong.
You can, because you're you.
The girl who also hasn't quite been herself lately.