Dear baby girl,

You don't exist yet, but that does not mean I haven't thought about you. I have imagined what you will look like. I can't help but to sit here and think if you will look like me or your father. I can't wait to meet you, and see how beautiful you are. You will be so gorgeous, I know that already. I wonder what your personality will be. Will you be quiet or talkative? Will you like to play sports or will you prefer to be in the stands? I can't wait to see these traits form in you.

I think of you almost every day. I think of how much I want you right now, and how much I wish I could make that happen, but unfortunately I will have to wait a little while longer. But in the meantime, I can think of what you will be like. What your name will be, and what I will be like as a parent. I want to be the parent you deserve, and I fear I won't be good enough for you, or that you won't be proud of me. I know that you could never be someone I am not proud of, but I fear that I will fall short of what you need. I fear that you will be disappointed in me.

I want you to know that I will love you no matter what you decide for your life. I could never love you less. I may not agree with some of your decisions, but you are my daughter and I will love you unconditionally.

I want you to know that I want the best for you. I don't want you to experience the pain that I have felt. I want you to pick the boys that won't hurt you, I want you to be safe in my arms forever, but unfortunately, I have to let you live your life and make your decisions. I will fear for you, and I will be a parent who will drive you crazy. I will be the parent who wants to know where you are and what you're doing, but that's because I want to absolute best for you.

I love you so much and can't wait for you to make me into an amazing parent.
With love,
Your Parent