Grieving never gets any easier. It doesn't hurt less when your Grandma passes than it does when a friend passes the shock hits you before anything else.
In my 19 years on this earth, 3 people I knew under the age of 20 died too soon... This is what I wish I could say to them...
To You,
I know I wasn't close to all three of you. I also know that all of you impacted my life in some way. So this is for you...
I wish I would have gotten the chance to say a final goodbye to each and every one of you. All of your deaths were sudden and unexpected. Each day I woke up like it was a normal day, and each day I got news that I had never expected to hear. Each day the feeling shock and the need to deny what had happened came over me.
I wish I could have been closer to each and every one of you. I was close with one of you when I was younger and I am grateful for that, but I still wish that we would have grown closer and not further apart. The other two I met later on and although we weren't that close at the time of your passing, you still had an impact on me.
I wish each and every one of you would have had more time with your loved ones. I think the hardest part about dealing with death is watching the people around you mourn. I miss each one of you deeply and seeing the posts about how you impacted so many people made it extremely hard for me to move on. You all were loved so deeply by so many. You touched so many lives, and that makes dealing with your death harder.
I wish heaven wasn't so far away. I wish I could come visit each of you even if it was just for a day, an afternoon, I'd even take an hour if that meant that I could say goodbye.
The hardest part about dealing with the death of a person so young is realizing all that they missed out on, while still understanding that they had such a great impact in such a short amount of time.
I wish that your time here would have been longer, I wish I could say goodbye, and I wish that grieving would be easier.
Grieving never gets easier, but I wish the shock of losing all of you did...