You’re doing great. You’re loving life, it seems that everything is finally falling into place, you should be completely and utterly happy...but you’re not completely. Something is off and as a result you’re not okay. You’ve found yourself in an awkward position, because while your life seems great, you’re not. You find it hard to talk to anyone about it because you don’t know what to say. “Oh yea, my life is perfect right now, but I’m not happy?” They’d look at you like you had three heads. How is it that you’re life can be going great, but you, yourself feel so off? You could blame it on Mercury being in Retrograde, or you could face the truth-maybe you’re not as okay as you think you are.
I’m anxious, I’m stressed, I’m not feeling myself, and that’s okay. It is perfectly okay, to not be okay. Don’t beat yourself up over it. You’re human, not a robot, of course you’re going to hit a low. You’re doing amazing things, you’re doing just fine, and it’s okay that you’re not as great as you pretend to be.
I found myself in this place the other day, everything in my life was going fine, but I felt really off. It was like I was just floating through my life, I felt so scatterbrained, so anxious, so stressed, so not okay. I was dealing with getting back into a routine at college, dealing with friends, family, classes, changes, just so much at once. I was way more overwhelmed than I wanted to admit to myself, and I in no way had control over my life. I’m so Type A, and the fact that I had lost control over my life was affecting me more than I had realized. The question remained: How do I regain that control, and be okay again?
Whether your issues lie in loss of control like mine did, or toxic friends, loss of your sense of self, a breakup, failing, or even just the doubts in your own mind, you have to first acknowledge that you are not okay. After that you have to ask yourself-why am I feeling this way, and how can I change it? Whether it’s organizing your planner, asking for help, talking to a friend, or releasing the toxic people from your life. Maybe you need to just separate yourself from your life for a little while, or go out and do something out of your comfort zone. Maybe get back into your routine, your diet, or just take a day for yourself. Listen to what your mind, your soul, God, the Universe, is telling you, and make that change. It’s okay to not be okay, but you can’t remain in that state, you have to find yourself again.
For me that meant letting go of the things I couldn’t change, releasing the bad thoughts running my life, focusing on the amazing people I had. It meant creating a more balanced todo list, reaching out to a friend for some support, and taking some time for myself. Am I a hundred percent okay? Hell no, but is that okay? Most definitely, because I’m gaining that control back and eventually I’ll be back to a good place in my life.
If life didn’t push you down sometimes, then it’d be pretty boring. You wouldn’t learn, you wouldn’t find your right path, and you would never truly be happy. So next time life pushes you down, remember that you have wings.
All the good vibes.