No, I Don't Have Free Time, And I Love That

No, I Don't Have Free Time, And I Love That

What I've learned from being this busy is that I will subconsciously make time for things that make me happy
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I do a lot of things in my free time. I write for Odyssey (duh), and I also edit for the community. I am in a sorority (Go Gamma Phi!!), and I am on the executive board of the Panhellenic Association.

I dedicate time to my friends, my boyfriend, and my hobbies, like my faith. And on top of all of that, I find time to spend hours and hours in the library, focusing on doing the best I can to get my degree so I can become a nurse.

If you're asking, "When do you have time to eat? Or sleep?" I don't, really. I work it into my normal activities. I don't have free time, and I love that.

I love being involved in so many different kinds of experiences, being a part of so many people's stories, and to go to bed at night being absolutely exhausted. I feel like my life has a purpose, and that everything I do is important and life-changing, even in a small way.

But being busy is more than just personal satisfaction. It's really hard to be depressed or anxious when you move from appointment to appointment, and meeting to meeting. It is so good for my mental health to stay busy and stay moving, with little time to focus on my mistakes before I have to fix them and learn from them.

I used to think that the best way to deal with my depression was to scale myself back from activities to give myself time to heal, but that ended up making me more depressed. Throwing myself into everything I do, truly giving 110% of myself into everything I do, has given me so much more than just helping my serotonin levels.

It has given me self-confidence, proof that I can do everything I set my mind to, and an immense sense of pride as I do something that a year ago would have been impossible for someone as depressed as me.

Even the criticism I get from it has been helpful. Because what I've learned from being this busy is that I will subconsciously make time for things that make me happy.

What makes me happy are my friends who make me laugh genuinely and take my mind off of whatever I'm worried about.

What makes me happy is spending time with my boyfriend, usually listening to paranormal podcasts and watching old movies.

What makes me happy is taking twenty minutes before bed to do some bible study and to center myself to find God's grace in everything.

What makes me happy is what I make time for, and being busy makes me happy.

I won't apologize for not having time for people who make me feel bad for being so much, and I won't apologize for having to "pencil you in" to see how my week plays out. I love my life, and one of my main goals of this year is to not apologize for the things that make me happy and whole.

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15 Signs You're A Full-Time Working Girl, 40 Hours A Week Or More

Forty hours a week really changes you.
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Forty hour work weeks, 5 days, 8 hours per day. Full-time jobs require a lot of dedication and consume the majority of your time. I love my full-time internship, honestly. It's a lot of fun and I get to experience what it will be like when I grow up and work at a company. Here are some signs that you work full time.

1. You're always tired

Waking up at 6, being at work by 8 and not leaving until 5 can really make you exhausted. Waking up early kicks off your exhaustion while everything in between 8-5 can make you tired as well so by the end of the workday, you're ready for a nap. Except if you nap, then you won't sleep later and be even more tired the next day. Thank God for coffee.

2. Your body adjusts to waking up early

I don't seem to really sleep in anymore on the weekends. My body thinks I should be up early so I'm now waking up at 7 or 8. But hey I get to lay in bed until whenever I want so I don't mind too much.

3. Weekends become your summer

You try to squeeze your normal summer days into two days. Because they are the only days you have off, so you try to make the best of them.

4. Plan out your outfits

You tend to plan out your outfits every night because if you don't, you will be late to work. You can't just throw on any old shirt and shorts. You got to look good and professional.

5. Don't do anything during the week

You're dead after a day of work, so you dedicate your off time to resting and relaxation. You probably won't make major plans during the week.

6. "Sorry, I have to work."

This phrase is used a lot. If someone tries to plan something during the week: "Sorry, I have to work." Or if there's a late night party: "Sorry, I have to work [the next day]."

7. Love three day weekends

Three day weekends are a blessing from God. But the Friday before is an absolute killer and all you want to do is leave. Or the Monday after is even more worse than a normal Monday.

8. TGIF

Fridays have a whole new meaning when you work full-time. You can have a successful day at work and then you're able to party hard because you don't have to work in the morning. They also are the day that people can easily leave early on because hey, it's Friday.

9. Friends on the weekend

You won't see your friends until the weekend most likely. And sometimes you want to see them all at once but it's tough when you have only two free days. So hopefully all your friends are able to hang out together so you can see them all.

10. Have more laundry

I basically wear two outfits a day. My work outfit and my after work outfit. And they both are washed differently so I have to do separate loads. It actually sucks.

11. Super good at keeping track of time

You're always looking at the clock and become very aware of what time it is. It's weird but sometimes helps you get through the day.

12. You're always hungry

I've noticed that I am absolutely starving by the time 11 am rolls around. Then, when I get home, I am starving for dinner. Not sure why or how because I sit at a desk all day and don't have any physical activity but I eat a lot.

13. You're going to be pale

If your full-time job is in the summer, there's no way you'll get your usual tan if you work inside. Tanning is only for the weekends now so soak up the sun.

14. You may spend a little bit more

You're making good money at this job, so why not spend a little extra on some things? But everyone is different, so others may not even change how they spend their money.

15. Hump day has a whole new meaning

Took me from the time I first saw that commerical to when I started my full-time job to realize Wednesday is hump day because you're over the hump of the week.

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Am I A Good Person?

Is nice different than good?

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Before you ask no, this is NOT me trying to get people to tell me I'm a good person. In fact, I'd appreciate it if you DIDN'T comment that I am. This article isn't about me looking for attention or fishing for compliments. This article is about something else entirely.

As I walked to the train station today after work I watched a woman fall face first as she was crossing the road. I was standing right next to her. I saw her toe catch on her first step. I saw her fall in slow motion. I saw her lying on the ground like a starfish. I saw a man run up to her and grab her arm to help her up. I saw everyone stop and turn around to see what happened.

And what did I do? Nothing. I stood and watched. I was right there. I was probably the closest person to her and I didn't even try to help. Sure I stopped, but I didn't ask her if she was okay. I didn't help her stand up. I just stood and watched for a minute and then once she was standing I kept walking.

The moment I started to walk I couldn't help but wonder am I a good person? I thought about all the homeless people I had passed since starting my job a little over a month ago. Had I stopped and given them any money? No, not even once.

How can I be a good person when I'm not helping someone in need?

But it wasn't like I pushed the woman over I told myself. It wasn't like I'd been mean to any of the homeless people I'd passed. I didn't spit at them or insult them. What did that make me?

As I continued on my way down the street I started to think about "Into the Woods." In "Into the Woods" there are two different songs that explored the difference between nice and good. The witch tells all the protagonists that "You're not good, you're not bad, you're just nice." This line always confused me. Doesn't being nice make you good? Does nice not equal good?

Now the line seems to make more sense. Just because someone is nice that doesn't make them good. I may not have pushed her over, which is nice, but I didn't help which would've been the good thing to do. I may not have spit at the homeless person, which was nice, but I didn't give them my change which would have been the good thing to do.

As I sat down on the train I couldn't get this question out of my head. If I don't do the right thing all the time am I not a good person? If I'm just nice am I not good? I'm not saying I'm a bad person. That lyric comes back to me "you're not good, you're not bad, you're just nice."

But what quantity of niceness makes you good? How much good do you have to do before you are good? Does doing one huge good thing make you a good person or do you always need to be doing good things? How much of the time can you not be good and still be considered a good person? Is it 50/50? 20/80? 0/100?

Like I said earlier I didn't write this article for the attention. I wrote this article to make you question yourself. Are you good? Or are you just nice?

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