Rock bottom is a place no one wants to hit. I have some news for you though, we all end up doing it a time or two. You can either let yourself be defeated by it or grow immensely.
About a month ago, I reached my lowest point. I was exhausted, emotionally and physically. I had just ended my spring semester finals, broke up with my boyfriend, and had a bad case of lice. Bad things come in threes, right? I hadn't slept in weeks and barely ever ate. I didn't leave the house for almost two weeks straight because I had no desire to do anything. My mind was on 24/7 and I couldn't function as a normal human-being. I was a train wreck to say the least. My friends and family tried their best to support and understand me, but I felt they just didn't get it. When I moved back home for the summer, I broke down and lost it. I truly did not want to exist anymore. It was terrifying and I honestly thought I would never be ok again.
But I am ok. Actually, I am better than ok. I am thriving. I am going on exciting adventures with my friends every weekend, I have a great job, I get to love on my puppy every day, I go to church weekly, and I am constantly surrounded by people who support me. I originally thought everything was my fault. That I was lazy and overdramatic, but it wasn't that. I honestly felt hopeless and couldn't force myself to get out of bed. I finally sought out treatment and was diagnosed with an anxiety disorder.
I am living, breathing proof that you can grow from hitting rock bottom. If I had given up and let my lowest point defeat me, I would not be able to enjoy my life now. I am growing. I am stronger, smarter, and braver. I understand myself better and know what I need to be a happier, healthier me.
"God does his greatest work in our darkest hour." When you are at the lowest point, the only thing to do is to look up. Look up to God, the one being that will unconditionally love you and walk with you. Even though he is allowing this suffering in your life, he wants to be there for you. He has been through it. Look up to your friends and family. They want to see you happy and healthy. They will help you through your struggles, if you let them. "No man is an island." You cannot do life without others, it simply won't work. When you let God and people in to support you, I promise things will only get better.
You are in control of you life. Bad things will always happen, but we can change how we deal with them. If you are struggling, I encourage you to trust in the power of prayer, connect with those around you, and reach out for treatment. Those three things are what brought me up from rock bottom. Now I am happier than I have been in over a year.
