This past week has been encased in the chaotic, overwhelming realm of projects and assignments. I have found myself prancing to class on just about zero sleep, which is honestly not too new to me, and praying that I have enough energy to continue onto the next assignments.
As this year has been filled with weeks like these, one can imagine that my motivation has started to decrease some, and my energy at this point is nearly entirely depleted. By Friday of this week, I walked into my dorm, knowing that my nap would turn into a full nights sleep, and fully accepted it.
Waking up this Saturday morning had me tossing and turning to the fact that there are less than two weeks of classes left, my schedule is only getting even more hectic, and the scariest part—my summer is entirely unpredictable.
I’ve been trying my best this semester to plan out my life so I know exactly where I’ll be throughout the year. While doing so, I have tried to make sure that every second of my time is spent being entirely productive, while doing things to further my experiences in the realm of my major.
By taking 18 credits, working New York Fashion Week, writing for the Odyssey, taking spontaneous trips to New York City—my favorite fashion mecca, and dedicating my life to my portfolio, I have just about done this. After this semester is over, I’ll enter summer, and know that I want to keep up this dedication to my industry and overall work ethic.
Yet, this is where I do not have a set plan. There are so many things I have left to plan in order to have a fulfilling summer in the fashion industry, and after constantly looking for a set path, I am learning to let whatever happens to happen.
Today, I had to find some time for myself to recuperate from the crazy week ahead. To do so, I threw away part of my huge fear of going to a different hair stylist and pampered myself to getting my hair done before grabbing dinner with a friend. Honestly, it went really well, and I totally proved myself wrong.
As the last time, I needed my hair done while away at school involved me buying a last-minute round-trip bus ticket to and from Maine, this was a million times easier, and such a relief. Tomorrow, I am heading to the mall with one of my friends to get a pedicure before being thrown into this week of mayhem, and I feel that by then, I will have the motivation to accept it.
As this is the last full week of classes at Syracuse University before summer vacation, the workload is definitely distracting me from the fact that I’ll be leaving my close friends here for the summer, so I guess it is a plus.
Also, as I am unsure of exactly how my summer will play out, the stress I have been pooling into those thoughts has less space in my head to be pondered about, which is the second bonus.
With the crazy workload, I have held here at SU, which I do greatly appreciate, I have had little time to focus on having the set schedule that I do enjoy having. Because of this, I have learned that having a set direction or path is not always the solution.
As I have been constantly living in the moment, pushing myself every single day to produce the best work I can within the quick pace the weeks pass by it, I have accomplished so much more than I will be stressing over things I cannot control.
All-in-all, finding direction when things do seem, well, pretty out of sorts, is not always the best thing to do. As a close friend once told me, “the best things in life come unexpected,” and I am sure, just like everything else, that my determination will lead me in the perfect direction.
I just have to believe it.