Dear Secret Crush,

You broke my heart a hundred times in just six months. But I've never liked anyone as much as you. Even though you crushed my soul, I still liked you. More than you can ever imagine.

When I saw you in the hallway, my heart sped. When I heard you laugh, all I could see is how cute you looked with your scrunched up eyes and tilted smile. I love that you're extremely smart and caring.

But then began the drama.

You hurt me so much that it was agonizing to even be in the same room as you. Even though I knew that I liked you — maybe even loved you — you would never see me as more than a classmate. You would never see me as the girl you would actually like. I wanted to hate you. I wanted to forget about you completely. I tried to like someone else, but my heart always found a way back to you.

No one else had your compassion, your charisma, your undeniable charm….no one could ever be you.

I was afraid I would never move on. This summer was the two most painful months ever.

I desperately wanted to see you again, to hear you laugh again. When school finally started again, I had given up hope that I'd ever see you. I saw this as an opportunity to move on. But all that hope shattered the moment I saw you walking down that hallway. When our eyes met, my heart skipped a beat and time froze for a second.

To see you again filled me with a so many emotions: anger, ecstasy, dejection, love, hope. It was painful to see you everyday knowing that we could never talk again. Knowing that things could never be the same.

Now that I'm finally over you, I can move on without anything holding me back. But I still hope that someday, we can forget all this and finally talk without any hard feelings between us. Even though I moved on, I will always remember you, not for the way you hurt me, because of your amazing personality.

Your Secret Admirer

When I first went through a heartbreak, I realized how much it hurt. I realized the pain that liking someone can bring. I wrote this based on my own thoughts and how I imagine a brokenhearted person who was in love might be feeling.

Disclaimer: This is a work of fiction. Names, characters, businesses, places, events, locales, and incidents are either the products of the author's imagination or used in a fictitious manner. Any resemblance to actual persons, living or dead, or actual events is purely coincidental.