For as long as I can remember, the word "forced" has sounded really unpleasant to my ears. Literally, anything that comes after that particular word just feels horrid.
Forced perspectives. Forced friendships. Forced love. Even forced feelings.
"Forcing things is never the solution" is a rule I try to apply to all areas of my life. However, there were times I would find myself breaking that rule. Most of those times, it was out of my control.
What an irony, breaking the very principle that serves as the pillar of my life.
Why would I do that? Out of utter desperateness, even if it means putting aside my pride momentarily.
When you are pushed into a corner, you tend to do things that are unlike you. That's normal, so don't beat yourself up over it.
You become increasingly paranoid when your partner is not replying your text but has the time to update social media. You think of all possible excuses to justify his or her questionable behavior. You know something went wrong somewhere, but you just can't pinpoint exactly where.
Just let him or her go. It's hard, but there's no point in trying to force yourself onto someone who simply disregards whatever you have done.
It's like putting on a show and dedicating a song to your special someone, only to have that person walk out on you.
You don't have to be with a person who constantly plays mind games and sets hurdles, just to see you fail time after time. Each time is even more painful than the previous one, while that person just stands at one corner and savors his or her victory.
Holding on to people who are stingy about giving love to you hurts even more than losing them.
Loving them is like going for multiple examinations without knowing that you are being tested. So why continue to pursue this path of self-destruction?
Feelings should never be forced, and you should never have to request them in any relationship. If your presence is valued, they will be automatically given to you. You should never in be a situation where you need to ask for someone else's feelings.
Initially, you may feel that it's OK to be the one who always goes the extra mile. This works for a while. You remain passionate and loving for as long as you can manage until the cycle of intense emotions starts again.
After a time, you'll find yourself doubting the entire relationship again. Questions like, "Does he really love me?" or "Why is he behaving like this?" will start popping up. I'm asking you to stop for your own sake.
Losing yourself is worse than being with someone who, if given the choice, wouldn't want to be lost with you.