Have you ever eaten at your favorite food spot so many times that it starts to not taste as good or watched your favorite movie over and over again until your favorite scene doesn't make you cry anymore?
That's what's happening with me and my one true love: writing.
I've been writing since I was very little, and I honestly have never been as passionate about anything else. And now, I write all day every day. It really is amazing. I get to wake up and practically write until I go to bed. I even get to write for one of the leading publications in downtown Orlando. But recently, I haven't felt as passionate about it as I used to be. It's almost like my writing and I have outgrown the "honeymoon stage."
It's not because I don't love to write anymore. In fact, it's quite the opposite. I chased my dream of writing so far that I literally am eating, sleeping, and breathing it. And although I am going through a terrible case of writer's block, I know that it is, and always will be, what I'm meant to be doing.
I think it's important for everyone to know what I've discovered since I've been feeling unmotivated to write. After a couple glasses of wine and binge-watching both "Younger" and "The Bold Type" on Hulu, I've realized that I am totally in the right profession, because I haven't stopped.
No matter how long I write, I still wake up and do it every day. Do I have to? Well, kind of, since both of my internships revolve around me being a journalist. But that's not why I do it. I do it because it's the only passion I've ever really had, and even when I get sick of it and don't have any idea what to write about, I still know it's the one thing that will make me feel better.
Feeling unmotivated doesn't mean that I'm in the wrong profession, it just means that I need to start appreciating it more. I've grown so numb to the words on the page that it's starting to become less personal than it used to be when I would jot down short stories in a journal that only I could read.
Now, it's time to start treating every page I write on like that journal. I need to stop holding back and use my voice to do what I've always loved to do: tell stories. More importantly, my stories.
This piece is my first step towards gaining my true writer's voice back. It was briefly taken from me by mundane work days and a lack of sleep, but I know that being a journalist, an author, and a writer will always be my true identity, and I would never want to do anything else with my life.