This is another poem written by my friend, Cassandra. Take these words, enjoy them, apply them, or interpret them however you may.
Do you ever feel like
you’re stuck
Like you can’t get away
from somewhere
From someone
From a certain dream
From a feeling
Feeling that you’re fine
You don’t need anyone
in your life
You’re fine without someone
You’re independent
You’ve tried telling yourself
That everything is okay
Finally you’re convinced
The next few days
the ideas fade
The feeling comes back
You try to push it away
But its shoved right in front of your face
Believe it
Know it
I’m right here
It says
You can’t escape me
You thought I was gone
But oh boy were you wrong
Here I am talking to you
Why aren’t you paying attention
I want to be happy for you but I cant
I’m only thinking about used to be’s and what if’s
I’m trying to be supportive
and pretend I’m excited
But really I’m dark inside
Praying you won’t tell me every detail
Because the longer you speak
The longer the feeling lasts
And its creeping from my head into my heart
It’s confusing my emotions
Because one minute
I’m completely fine
And the next…
I can’t do it anymore
I want to run away
and hide
and live by myself
by a lake
and read books about loneliness
and happy endings
even though I don’t think they’ll exist for me
and I want to sit with my thoughts
and wonder
Why am I the only one
Why am I so alone in this
And don’t get me wrong
I have so many friends
I love them more than anything
But its not the same
The feelings I would have
They’re so different
And maybe someday
I’ll look back at this
And laugh and smile
And wonder why I ever worried about it so much
But maybe I overestimated myself
And years from now I’ll be saying the same things.
Who knows…
Maybe I wasn’t meant for happy endings.
Poem written by Cassandra Norris