Who forgot my birthday this year? Who was reminded only by Facebook or my grandma sending out a group text? Who was there to bring you cupcakes at midnight?
Don't let them tell you that they should always be first if you're not a priority in their life. You're just another topic at the dinner table being gossiped about.
They put in their two sense but don't ever talk to you. They say 'oh I would never do that' or 'well if that were me', but they don't try to advise you. You only hear about these things through the grapevine. I always thought family was everything and that y'all were the closest people in my life.
No matter what happens y'all would love me unconditionally, but judgment just oozes out of y'all. So here's an open letter to my family.
Y'all always made me feel like I never fit in.
I could never dye my hair, wear dark lipstick, or wear big bows without hateful comments.
Y'all always had something negative to say to me.
I was never good enough.
I was never your idea of a perfect kid.
When I was younger y'all told me I was different, which I obviously knew.
Now that I'm comfortable in my own skin and confident enough in just being myself, y'all try to tear me down even more.
I'll never be good enough for y'all's family.
I'm done trying to impress y'all.
Is this what you call a family?
You made us lie.
You told us that we could keep secrets.
You hid a brother from us.
You constantly told us how much our parents loved each other.
But they didn't. She did, but he didn't.
Y'all lied about everything, and now I've learned that that's not what family does. I've learned what a family is from a family I'm not even a part of yet. They treat me better than y'all ever have.
I'm not ungrateful for the things I've gotten, but the only good things I can even think of thanking y'all for is material things.
Thank you for taking us on trips to New York and Hawaii when we were younger.
Thank you for continuing to pay for most college expenses. But family doesn't go behind peoples' backs and stalk every move I make by checking my bank account.
If this is your version of a "family", then I don't want it.
Return to sender.