Faking It All

Faking It All

When depression is high you learn to fake it

That smile on my face. The laugh at little things. The times I have said I was "good" or "fine." The thing is it's all fake.

After awhile things just seem so easy to do, because depression has taken over. It's a mess all I want to do is cry and stay in bed. I can't due that though cause people have to adult. Everyday is a battle. Depression is like when you heart and mind stop loving each other but still eat at the same dinner table.

Before you know it your listening to sad music, you notice your favorite books make you cry, you end up tired all the time, and overall it's just hard to be happy.

People say "Everything happens for a reason." Why do bad things happen to good people?

Temporary happiness really is temporary. Maybe happiness just isn’t for me. I just want to sleep until my dreams become reality.

It hurts on the inside. It hurts so bad. I don’t know how to ease the pain.

I’m crying again. This feels so pathetic. I don’t want to wipe my tears anymore. I just want to cry until everything pours out of me. I feel so lonely, despite being surrounded by people.

One day the pain will end. People say "pain is temporary." I just hope it's true.

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How We Have Stereotyped Depression

Not everyone who has depression is going to act the exact same way.


I have struggled with depression for a number of years now, probably since I was in middle school. And my close friends are aware that this is something I deal with.

But I've noticed that whenever I mention this to people, most are surprised. Especially if it's people that I don't talk to every day or spend time with.

They always say something along the lines of, "but you're always laughing and making jokes" or "but you're such a bubbly person". They always tell me I don't seem like "the kind of person to be depressed". For a while, I took that as a compliment. I was glad people didn't assume I was depressed.

But eventually, I realized people say that because they have this image in their mind of what someone who is depressed is supposed to look or act like. That because I didn't walk around frowning everywhere I went or was this awfully negative person, that I was always happy.

When in reality, that's not it. I'm not always laughing and making jokes. I'm not always such a bubbly person. But how I, or anyone, may look on the outside doesn't always match how I'm feeling on the inside. It just means I've learned how to function with it.

A lot of the cause of this stereotype on depression stems from social media. I know most people can recall seeing at least one or two pages on Instagram of those "emo" accounts that always post about being depressed, how much they love heavy metal or screamo bands and wear a lot of blacks.

If it's not that stereotype, it's the one where people who are depressed never talk to people, isolate themselves, and always have a mentality of "the glass is half empty".

And while people like this just might be depressed, we can't assume that's how everyone is. So just because someone is smiling on the outside, doesn't mean they don't battle with inner demons.

When it comes to mental illness, as well as many other things, there's no one way to deal with it. And everyone expresses themselves in their own way. Something society needs to keep in mind is that you can never truly know what people are going through by how they present themselves.

It's what happens inside and behind the mask.

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