Expectations Can Weigh Heavily On Individuals, Just Let People Do Their Thing

Expectations Can Weigh Heavily On Individuals, Just Let People Do Their Thing

I shouldn't feel bad for not meeting your expectations.
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I have mentioned in previous articles that my childhood was not the easiest to get through. My family had a lot of different issues that we were dealing with and it took years before everything started to feel okay again. Even though my family is in a good place now, my childhood had a significant impact on my presentation of my emotions to others.

Specifically, when I was young I often felt sad at home. However, since I didn’t want other people, like my friends, to know what was going on, I chose to always act like everything was completely fine. This meant that although I felt sad when I would leave my home, I would put a smile on my face and be the “happy Nidhi” everyone knew me as.

With that being said, I never realized the effect this would have on my current relationships as a 20-year-old in college today. I think a lot of people who I am very close to expect me to always be in a good mood and smiley. It is the perception of myself that I have given off for so many years and although I am fully aware that feeling this way is only partly true most of the time, others seem to have taken it has who I am all the time.

Thus, when I am having a bad day and just want to keep to myself, people react quite differently towards me.

A lot of people will bother me as to why I am not acting how I normally am or take my responses as being mean or out of character rather than just a result of being judged for having a bad day. I know this sounds really weird, but I swear on the days I am feeling not myself, people around me tend to be surprised that “happy Nidhi” could possibly be having a bad day.

This reaction that others often have towards me has been weighing on me heavy. This is mostly due to the fact that I really want to be treated like everyone else. Yes, many days I am very happy and I like sharing that sentiment with others in my life. However, I am human and I have bad days sometimes.

Really bad days.

On those days, I just want to feel respected for my feelings and not feel like I have to fake a smile to get through the day. I have done that my entire childhood and I really don’t want to have to deal with that now as a young adult.

I am not sure if others have ever experienced this type of reaction from those close to them, but if you have, just know that I can relate. The best advice I can give is to simply be honest with those around you so that they are aware that you are going through something. However, if that is something that you do not feel comfortable doing, then it may be best to take some time to deal with your rough patch on your own -- whatever you need to do to get through your day, as long as it is healthy, is perfectly okay.

Further, if you are reading this and you know someone who is similar to me, my only request is that you respect that them having a bad day isn’t totally out of character and something that needs to be made a big deal. They are human just like you and should be treated as such.

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10 Things Someone Who Grew Up In A Private School Knows

The 10 things that every private school-goer knows all too well.

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1. Uniforms

Plaid. The one thing that every private school-goer knows all too well. It was made into jumpers, skirts, shorts, scouts, hair ties, basically anything you could imagine, the school plaid was made into. You had many different options on what to wear on a normal day, but you always dreaded dress uniform day because of skirts and ballet flats. But it made waking up late for school a whole lot easier.

2. New people were a big deal

New people weren't a big thing. Maybe one or two a year to a grade, but after freshman year no one new really showed up, making the new kid a big deal.

3. You've been to school with most of your class since Kindergarten


Most of your graduating class has been together since Kindergarten, maybe even preschool, if your school has it. They've become part of your family, and you can honestly say you've grown up with your best friends.

4. You've had the same teachers over and over

Having the same teacher two or three years in a row isn't a real surprise. They know what you are capable of and push you to do your best.

5. Everyone knows everybody. Especially everyone's business.

Your graduating class doesn't exceed 150. You know everyone in your grade and most likely everyone in the high school. Because of this, gossip spreads like wildfire. So everyone knows what's going on 10 minutes after it happens.

6. Your hair color was a big deal

If it's not a natural hair color, then forget about it. No dyeing your hair hot pink or blue or you could expect a phone call to your parents saying you have to get rid of it ASAP.

7. Your school isn't like "Gossip Girl"

There is no eating off campus for lunch or casually using your cell phone in class. Teachers are more strict and you can't skip class or just walk right off of campus.

8. Sports are a big deal

Your school is the best of the best at most sports. The teams normally go to the state championships. The rest of the school that doesn't play sports attends the games to cheer on the teams.

9. Boys had to be clean-shaven, and hair had to be cut

If you came to school and your hair was not cut or your beard was not shaved, you were written up and made to go in the bathroom and shave or have the head of discipline cut your hair. Basically, if you know you're getting written up for hair, it's best just to check out and go get a hair cut.

10. Free dress days were like a fashion show

Wearing a school uniform every day can really drive you mad. That free dress day once a month is what you lived for. It was basically a fashion show for everyone, except for those upperclassmen who were over everything and just wore sweat pants.

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An Ending Is A New Beginning

The end is just the beginning of a new story.

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Endings are hard. They are bittersweet, and almost always painful; Whether it is the ending of a book, a movie, a beloved tv series, or a relationship.

Endings to me are the start of something new and fresh. There is a breath of fresh air to the closing of one door and the opening of another. From now on, my focus is on me and how I can best love myself. I want to be involved more in school activities and stay at school more weekends, rather than head home to see someone.

I have never taken time for myself. I always put others first, and there is never anything wrong with that, but it begins to weigh on a person when they neglect their own needs.

My new philosophy is that my happiness and my needs are going to come first. I put off what I needed for a long time in favor of someone else's needs. People often forget that their feelings matter too when they're in a relationship, and out their significant other above themselves. This ending for me is the absolute fresh start after a long almost three years where I put how I felt on the back burner in favor of someone else.

Now, it's my turn to start putting myself first and become an even better version of me.

Always make sure that you take care of yourself in every possible situation; Your health is the most important thing about you. If you don't take care of yourself before you try to take care of someone else, it will only end badly for both people involved.

Self-love and self-care are the most important things for a person, and my self-love is starting with growing out my hair, finishing out this second semester strong, and planning a beach trip for May with some of my favorite human beings.

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